Circle?

Why am i still remain in the circle?

I already know the answer but why am i still waiting for the answer?

Im living in a circle that keeps me going in the same problems that i encounter and it repeat again and again.

I do not want to get hurt anymore with the same deep hurt.

I'm just so tired of this repeated problems and the same old hurt.

Why do I have such a terrible feeling?

Would it be a better life for me without this terrible feeling?

I thought i was already got rid of this painful and tired circle but somehow I just realised that I am still in the circle that has no exit,

Why cant i just leave this circle?

I really don't want to remain there for the rest of my life.

I just want to get out of this painful circle.

Im tired of facing the same problems that will never make me grow instead of hurting me more and more.

I want to have freedom.

Free from the terrible feeling,

Free from the hurts,

Free from facing the same old problems.

I really need a breakthrough,

I used to tell my friends to guard their hearts when they have the same feeling as me,

But I,myself,

did not show an example of guarding my heart when i face the same thing.

Whenever i have that feelings,I'll just get myself in the trap without realising that it is a trap,the same old trap.

I tend to make assumption by my own according to what i observed and feel

But somehow the assumption that i thought of, was just the opposite of the reality.

I told myself that I will remain strong when problem comes but I am getting weaker and weaker from the inside.

Is this what all the trials about that God is testing me?

I really need the strength from God.

Im seriously tired of this circle.I really want to destroy it once and for all!