The dream that i've been longing to come to past had shattered with just a word 'NO'.The dream of being a designer had took me a long time to decide it.It was so hard to have the courage to take up this dream of being in the world of arts and design.After so long,i finally made a decision to have the courage to choose design.I love colors.I love arts.I love handcrafts.I love seeing those graphics that shown on tv,webpages,packaging and etc.When i once go for shopping and pass by one of the shop that was designated with all the graphics,i told myself i want to design such a thing in the future.God grants me this dream i believe its from my gifted talents.I love making cards and other creative things to people as a gift.When i make a gift using my creativity,i always tell myself this is my learning and training process to my future as a designer.
But when i got my STPM result,everything has changed.I did not do well in my STPM.I told myself that i must have another back up plan to pursue my dream in designing.I've made a back up plan which was doing diploma instead of degree.But just because of my STPM result,my dream had shattered.My parents protested me in taking up design course with a reason saying that i do not have the ability to do it.I was so disappointed after hearing those words.I kept questioning myself why arent they see the creativity side of me?I believe that i have the ability to do it and i have the confident that i can do it.Whenever i have the confident,they will tend to pull my confident down and become a person with no dream and purposes.They are controlling my dream instead of me to control my dream.
God spoke to me that when a door had shut,the other will open.I was asking God what was that mean?was God asking me to throw away my creativity talents?I couldnt get an answer for it.
Sooner,I've got recommended a course from my sister which was hotel and tourism management.When i was in my secondary school,i did thought of taking up hotel management.But somehow my family members protested me to take that course and saying all the negative side of the course.Then,i gave up on that dream and moved on to search for another dream.And once i got a dream,again they discouraged me.I am so tired of searching the dream.Everyone in my family tried to persuade me to take this course but my heart was hardened and did not listen to them.But sooner,more and more people around me persuading me to this course.First was my eldest sister.She did explained to me in a very detailed manner being in this line.Second person that spoke to me was my youth leader,Sherene.She spoke to me that with my personality and my character,being in this line would be a best choice.She even told me that i'm a person that could not take up too much of stress.Being in a design field is a must to take up stress and also she said that i can use my creativity in this line too..The way sherene told me proved that i dont understand my own self.While the third person that counselled me was my prefects senior,Aaron Oo. He spoke the same thing as what my sister and sherene said.From there,i confirmed that it was God's calling.I believe this was the second door that was opened to me.Without more hesitation,I decided to accept this new dream.Though i'm missing the dream i had,i have to accept the fact and go for the new dream.After deciding so long,I finally taking up this dream and be prepare to be in this line.I'm still doubting of this dream but God gave me more confirmation of this dream.Whenever i tell my friends of this course,they will say i've made a good choice because this course has a very bright future.Most of the students took up this course are now succeeded in their career.Thank God for this new dream.I've learnt one thing from God which is whenever the dream that God gave us,He can take it away from and replace a better one.i shall not doubt of what will i be in the future because God is in control of life.
just a little update.I'll be heading to the next chapter of my life soon.Starting my course in the mid of may.
All Glory to HIM.