im in need.

Sometimes i asked myself this question ''is my way of helping others correct?'' Sometimes i feel stupid when i help those who doesnt even appreciate it.They will find me when they're in need and leave me when they're not.And when im in need,i have no one to help me through but except for God alone.I really want to impact others life by helping them but did i really impacted their lives?the answer is No.Whenever im in need,i really want to find someone just to be a listener to my problems but somehow i only can find Jesus and keeping it to myself.Seriously i dont like the feeling of hiding so many things inside myself.I feel like shouting all out.But Jesus just spoke to me one thing just now during prayer meeting when sherene prayed for me.Jesus spoke to me that,its okay if theres no one by my side because Jesus is always by my side listening to my problems.And Jesus also spoke to me that even if i have no one being by my side loving me,Jesus will always by my side loving me.He'll never leave me.
And lately i've been thinking alot about studies,my life,friends,family and alot more.I really wanna shout it all to God alone but somehow i just couldnt do it.I pray that i could able to overcome this with God' alone.

my final prom nite in school

My final prom night has just ended which was yesterday.Frankly speaking,it was kinda bored like last year because firstly it held in school and secondly,everyone had to sit still in the hall watching all the performances.While the food,well no comment.It was not the best for me but i just ate it as i was starving that time.Well overall this year prom night doesnt turned out what i've expected.I took pictures with friends most of the time instead.After the prom night ended,i went for second round with my schoolmates at de garden.We went to pappa rich for a short supper then we walk around the 'de garden'.One of my friend decided to go Airport pub to have a look at the environment that is newly launched.As we stood outside the airport and have a look at the menu,it really stunned us as the price was so 'nice'.lol.but thank God that we didnt go as i dont like those place.Instead of going airport,we stood outside the airport pub and took picture of the airport poster.That was really made me LOL-ed. As we were kept posing with the airport poster for photo taking.Even the guard looked at us like one kind.haha.After that,we went around the area to pose and took pictures.Seriously this was my first time posing around with friends and taking lots of pictures.Well i'll upload the pictures soon and share with you all as i need time to collect all of my pictures from my friends:)Now everything has ended and stpm is just one month ahead.This could be my final lap before i am free from schooling life.And I have to work extremely hard for stpm to prevent any regretness by the end of the year and one the result day.And i need Jesus to strengthens me and work with me through it=)


taken by DSLR camera:)

home alone.

Today im home alone again as my parents has gone down to KL to visit my sisters.I felt freedom although im home alone because im free from all the nagging from my mom.But she did called me a few times to checked on me.This morning i felt quite different than usual.Normally i dont talk much with my parents.But this morning when my parents going out to railway station by taxi,my dad actually told me to take care and my mom bid goodbye to me.I just kept quiet not because im being cool or what but i was stunned that time and do not know what to reply to them.I never experience this before.Although this might be a small thing or nothing to others but this is something for me.Anyway today is special compared to other days because i cooked breakfast for myself.It was not my first time cooking breakfast but it was my first time cooking pasta.lol.Normally my mom did all the cookings and my duty is to wait for it to serve:)MY first time pasta was nice i would say.lol.Gonna practice my cooking skill more.lol:)

an awful feeling

Why am i having this feeling again?Deep in my heart,i felt being stab by a knife.Im trying not to think of it but somehow my mind keeps reminding me.Whenever i have this feeling,i feel like crying out loud but i held back my tears.I seriously feel so awful even right now.Whenever i got criticize by others,the scar in my heart is getting deeper.i wanted to attack back but somehow i gotta control my temper.i guess God is training me to be patience?I cant do anything now except look to Jesus.I pray that God will heal my broken heart.

outing with my bestie!

Last saturday(4/9/10) indeed a memorable day for me.In the afternoon,i went for badminton with Sek Kit and Liyen.Kinda fun though kept crapping with Sek Kit and had a good conversation with him.Later at night,i went for steamboat with Sek Kit,Li Yen,Jia An,Sara and Khai Mei.I felt so good that i could able to spend my time with my friends like this again since the last time in secondary school.For once,i really felt the joy during that time.I believe that it was God's blessing upon me and my friends.But God dont do His duty half way.God do His duty to the fullness and in perfection.After steamboat,i went to Liyen's house to overnight because the next day we went church together.At night,i really had a good girls talk with liyen.Honestly,in secondary school i used to stick with my classmates only.And liyen,i would say i wasnt close with her that time.But God is awesome,because He brought liyen into my life as a true friend and a good sister.After chatting half way,we watched Maria Sharapova's match in tennis tournament(as requested by Sek Kit..lol).When i watched with their family,i really felt the warmness as a family.When i see their family's relationship that is so close and understanding,i felt abit of envy.But i believe that God will also do the same thing in my family.And although happy moments always pass so fast as if 2 times faster but i really do treasure it alot.Thank God for giving me this moments of experiencing the true friendship.And yeah im so glad seeing my friends accepted Christ as personal Lord and Savior.PTL!!