hopes=disappoinment

My heart beats even faster whenever i see him.
Trying to have a proper conversation with him but i do not have the courage to have a topic to talk about.
Whenever i see him,trying to greet him but somehow i felt being ignored by him.
I maybe too sensitive or thinking too much?
Whenever i expect more,somehow it turned the other way round than what i've expected to be.
I have no chance to talk to him.When i want to talk to him,he'll just walk away.
I can only see him from a distance.
And I'm satisfied with it though thats not what i expected.

back.

Muet exam has ended.I have the feeling that im gonna retake my muet again.Im quite disappointed that i didnt do well.I've wasted alot of time during my preparation and now i regretted for not making full use of time given to me for preparation.I did not managed my time well and caused me lack of time to finish my papers.sigh.Well everything is over now.All i need to do is to lift everything to God as i did my best.I pray very very hard to get at least band 4.nothing much i can do right now. I don't want to retake muet exam.Gotta pray hard for that.

Anyway tonight going to sam tet to watch the choir concert performed by sam tet choir and MIA ladies choir.and gonna support Qiu ning and kelvin ding=)

The picture above tells it all.Will resume updates after my MUET exam which falls on the 24th April.Stay tune:)

Friends

In our lives we meet many kind of people and we made a lot of friends.But finding a true friend is kind of hard in my opinion.Sometimes i feel so dumb to help a friend whenever they're in need but when they do not need you,they tend to ignore you and refuse to listen to your opinion.Well what does friends means?Basically friends means a person that is trustworthy,sharing all the joy,happiness or even sadness together and most importantly is to support each other.When a friend of mine is going through some issues,i decided to lend an ear to listen and tries to console by giving encouraging advise.But whenever i need someone the most to listen all my cries and problems,somehow they tend to help me in making decision according to what they think is right in doing something which is hurts me, without telling me.And the worse thing is that i just got to know that all the things that had happened is related to my close friend.I feel very hurt whenever i found out about it and i feel that i was being betrayed by a close friend.I do not know whom is my REAL TRUE friend.I really need a friend whom can listen to my cries,my hurts and not to make decision on behalf of me and respect me.I feel that it is pointless to help anyone whom always put me down.I love helping people but not to those who doesnt appreciate the friendship.

tired.

Lately im feeling very tired day by day with my packed scheduled.School life is getting very hectic as everyone is busy preparing for STPM.A part from school,i also have to be committed in my church activities.I really dont know whether i can handle all these.I felt myself is getting exhausted and with all the pushing by my every teacher that teaches me.Feeling the pressure right now.But somehow i must hold on with this situation and keep pressing on till after STPM is over.Really pray hard that God will grants me extraordinary strength to move on.

SMILE=D

A smile can brighten our lives.

One thing that Pastor Josef Chow impacted me is when he said that everyday is a Christmas day for him as he always put a smile on his face.This message really struck me as i realised myself always with the 'fu kua' face.(bitter face).Now i have to remind myself to put on a smile on my face as it does not only brighten my day but also brighten peoples around me just like the picture above.

new updates...

Sports day had ended which was held on 1st April.Well my class marching lost as i expected it la but one thing im satisfied was my class had put some afford in the end compared to the first time we started our marching.From the beginning our marching was really a disaster but for the little co-operation that contributed by the classmates,we managed to finish up the formation although it wasnt a perfect one.We never aim for placing but we aim for the teamwork.All of us satisfied of our performance although we did not win.Well we didnt win doesnt mean we are losers.Anyway cut the story short,congrats to USA3 by achieving champion for class marching.They really done a great job with all the co-operation,affords and teamwork.They deserved to grab the champion.

And now come to my sad story.I've lost my wallet on APRIL FOOL day.A day that really FOOLED me.I've lost my identity card,driving license,atm card etc.I was so so upset but at the meantime i was angry also.I was angry because of the person who took my wallet.I wondered why is there such a person who likes to steal in SMI?.Does he has any wisdom?i mean does he ever think that when someone lost a thing,how does that person feel?I really want to find out that person and give him a lesson.Anyway i just pray to God,no matter what i really need back my important stuffs in my wallet forgetting about the money.

Well about easter..erm..as usual went to church.There was a pastor came from penang called Pastor Josef Chow.He came to ipoh and ministered in my church on friday,saturday and sunday(today).Really had a great service with him preaching.I was amazed that he could able to preach strongly eventhough he is at the age of 74.He look very tough and firm.Well not gonna elaborate it as it'll take a long time.After service,i saw a gong gong(he is edmond koh's grandpa btw) and he reminded me of my grandpa.Tears began to flow from my eyes as when i looked at edmond's grandpa as if im looking at my grandpa.This feeling was so sudden.I was so envied when i looked at ed's grandpa.I which i could able to look at my grandpa now and take care of him.But he's already gone now.Even now i always think that my grandpa is still alive and be with me.I just miss him so much.but i have to accept the fact that life must move on and letting go of the past.Let the past be the history and look forward for the future.