everything has ended

Everything has ended now.What has ended? Well,its about my prefects life.Everything has come to then end after a year of prefecting in school.Lately prefects were in a chaotic situation between teachers and prefects.And this has become the 'hot' topic among the students and outsiders.I really unexpected it to happen in prefectorial board.It was like a drama going on.Many prefects had left the board due to boycott of what the teacher doing.Later on,those who resigned were being terminated by the teacher incharge.I felt that was like having some game and see who got defeated?Recently most of us really stressed out with this matter and with all the gossips going in and out of the school.At first i planned to resign as well and follow the rest but after i've thought it over again,i've changed my mind to remain as prefect and 'tahan' untill the AGM (which is today).One reason that caused me changed my mind to remain in prefect is because of disco(discipline commission).There were a few things i've not finished .And today was the day that all of us,prefects,were waiting for it to come.This morning most of us were excited because its the AGM day.And everything will ends during the agm.But it does not ends what we expected it.And what had happened was far away from our expectation.Just a few minute before the meeting starts,we were informed that upper 6 and form 5 were not allow to attend the meeting which means that we were banned from the agm.I was like"WHAT?!!!" Imagine,we've been waiting for the agm to come and we ended up not allowed to attend.???!!I was so mad that time.How can they not let us to attend our last agm.??They are a few peoples who actually make out all these chaos.Although we couldnt attend the agm but we had our own agm.Many of us had shared alot of things,happy and sad things.We shared our joy and sorrow together.From there i realised that we do have a family and a strong one in prefectorial board.After our agm,we finally felt relieved.Although it was a rough ending for us but we are satisfied with it as we knew we have already won the battle.And im glad im officially retired from prefect and can sleep longer in the morning:)

Its okay=)

Just came back from powerhouse.Well powerhouse was just like usual.But the only different was God spoke to me about my weaknesses and it literally linked to the problems that im facing.What Mei Sum shared was really powerful that whenever we face trials and tribulation,God will be right beside us and say ''Its Okay'' because God is here for us to bring us through the tough times.And what Edmond had shared to us was no matter what challenges we face whether is family challenges,studies challenges,friendship challenges or relationship challenges,God will help us through.God will not solve it by Hiimself for us but He will only help us because He wants us to grow.I pray hard that things will be better for the coming days.

bitterness + sourness

Today really not my day.Right now im filled with bitterness and sourness in my heart.Listening to those discouraging words from others.And being alienated by others.Whenever others talking about something secretive,they'll give a signal to me to move away.I feel kind of hurt when seeing them like that but i couldnt do anything other than moving away to another place.I realised that my life now is full of discouragement that people gave me in school and also at home.i can forget what people had discouraged me in school but whenever i get home,there are even more discouragement to me.Many people says that discouragement is something like a challenge for us to do better.But what if the discouragement has over the limit?is it a good sign for a human?i feel that being discouraged too much by people,it'll pull my confident down to negative.I can honestly says that i'm a sensitive type of person.Why am i so sensitive is because i've been hearing a lot of discouraging words from others and thats why it made me to be like this .I'm looking for someone to be my listener to listen every of my problems but somehow i couldnt find a trusted one.All i can express my problems is to write it down here in my blog.And hiding myself at the corner with tears flowing down on my cheek.

I really thank God for my beloved sister Sara today to listen part of my problems and give me some guidance and motivation how to solve those problems.I'm not that type of person where i can express my problems in verbal contract.One thing that i agreed with her is that i love to keep things to myself.I wish that i could able to talk to her every single problems that i faced but somehow time doesnt allow me to do so as shes leaving for her university.Now i have to depends all by myself to hold on in this situation till after my schooling life.