The Journey of Life

when one door had shut,the other will open.

2011-03-28T20:42:00.000-07:00

The dream that i've been longing to come to past had shattered with just a word 'NO'.The dream of being a designer had took me a long time to decide it.It was so hard to have the courage to take up this dream of being in the world of arts and design.After so long,i finally made a decision to have the courage to choose design.I love colors.I love arts.I love handcrafts.I love seeing those graphics that shown on tv,webpages,packaging and etc.When i once go for shopping and pass by one of the shop that was designated with all the graphics,i told myself i want to design such a thing in the future.God grants me this dream i believe its from my gifted talents.I love making cards and other creative things to people as a gift.When i make a gift using my creativity,i always tell myself this is my learning and training process to my future as a designer.

But when i got my STPM result,everything has changed.I did not do well in my STPM.I told myself that i must have another back up plan to pursue my dream in designing.I've made a back up plan which was doing diploma instead of degree.But just because of my STPM result,my dream had shattered.My parents protested me in taking up design course with a reason saying that i do not have the ability to do it.I was so disappointed after hearing those words.I kept questioning myself why arent they see the creativity side of me?I believe that i have the ability to do it and i have the confident that i can do it.Whenever i have the confident,they will tend to pull my confident down and become a person with no dream and purposes.They are controlling my dream instead of me to control my dream.

God spoke to me that when a door had shut,the other will open.I was asking God what was that mean?was God asking me to throw away my creativity talents?I couldnt get an answer for it.

Sooner,I've got recommended a course from my sister which was hotel and tourism management.When i was in my secondary school,i did thought of taking up hotel management.But somehow my family members protested me to take that course and saying all the negative side of the course.Then,i gave up on that dream and moved on to search for another dream.And once i got a dream,again they discouraged me.I am so tired of searching the dream.Everyone in my family tried to persuade me to take this course but my heart was hardened and did not listen to them.But sooner,more and more people around me persuading me to this course.First was my eldest sister.She did explained to me in a very detailed manner being in this line.Second person that spoke to me was my youth leader,Sherene.She spoke to me that with my personality and my character,being in this line would be a best choice.She even told me that i'm a person that could not take up too much of stress.Being in a design field is a must to take up stress and also she said that i can use my creativity in this line too..The way sherene told me proved that i dont understand my own self.While the third person that counselled me was my prefects senior,Aaron Oo. He spoke the same thing as what my sister and sherene said.From there,i confirmed that it was God's calling.I believe this was the second door that was opened to me.Without more hesitation,I decided to accept this new dream.Though i'm missing the dream i had,i have to accept the fact and go for the new dream.After deciding so long,I finally taking up this dream and be prepare to be in this line.I'm still doubting of this dream but God gave me more confirmation of this dream.Whenever i tell my friends of this course,they will say i've made a good choice because this course has a very bright future.Most of the students took up this course are now succeeded in their career.Thank God for this new dream.I've learnt one thing from God which is whenever the dream that God gave us,He can take it away from and replace a better one.i shall not doubt of what will i be in the future because God is in control of life.

just a little update.I'll be heading to the next chapter of my life soon.Starting my course in the mid of may.

All Glory to HIM.

Plans

2011-02-11T02:32:00.000-08:00

Just a short update.I've just being informed by my friend via sms saying that STPM result will release on 21st February 2011.|And the date is confirmed.I got a little frightened whenever i received the news.But when i thought back of God's promises and all my friend's words of encouragement,i told myself not to worry so much as Jesus is with me.Even if i fail,its not the end of the world.But I just pray hard that im able to go through again for this round as i've already made it for so many round(UPSR,PMR,SPM).I'll just keep my faith in my dear Daddy God.

This month will be my last month of my current part time job.At first i did planned to go back to SMI to help Bro. Matthew at La Salle centre.But my third sister offered me a job which is to follow her to KL and work under her.She said this would be my so called probation towards the course that i'm planning to study which is graphic design.And she said that if i'm able to do well in this 'probation' job,she'll allow me to take up graphic design.My mom encourage me too to follow my sister.I dont know whether is this what God has planned for me but i'll try to take this challenge.If i really go,I'll be working in KL for a month.Will continue to seek God for a clearer directions:)

New Chapter of Life.

2011-02-10T02:35:00.000-08:00

I've left my blog untouched since last September and now i finally make some time to just update my daily life story:)
Time really flies and now i've entered a new year,a new season and a new chapter of my life.I really do miss my form 6th life though there were many ups and downs during that time but i just treasure the good times i had in SMI.Once a michaelian,Always a michaelian:)

Anyway, i started this new year by working as a part timer at Jusco(nose).At the beginning,i felt quite lost as im the only part timer and i've once thought of quitting that job.But thank God for wisdom that i didn't made regretful decision.I thank God for speaking to me through my Youth Leader,Sherene,telling me that when i started something,I am require to end it well.I've chosen this job and started working and all i need to do is to end it well.First 2 weeks,i wasn't happy of this job because i felt myself like alone-ranger but later on i managed to get along with my colleagues though sometimes its hard for me to fit into their topics because of their high standard cantonese.A part from that,God is so so good that He really did answered my prayers.Everyday before i start working i'll just pray a simple prayer like pray for good sales,more customers,alertness and so on.And after about 2 weeks,my assistant manager told me that i've ranked as the first placing in the sales individual ranking report which means that i've hit the highest sales among the staffs for the first month of the year and we did hit our sales target by the end of the month.Really Praise God for that!But unfortunately i started my second month of working with a minor accident at my workplace where i fell down from a broken ladder and injured my back and hit my head directly on the ground due to my loss of balance.Immediately i've sent to the nearest clinic and the doctor had a check on my back and my head and then wrote a letter to hospital for a scan on my head.At first,i didn't really want to go to hospital because it was just a minor injury but my manager told me its better to have a check on my head.A few hours after the incident,the pain at my injured part started killing me.I didn't slept well for about 3 nights because of the terrible pain at my back,head and neck.But that didn't stop me from going to work and do my daily routine.Really thank God for the speedy healing upon me which took about 4 days to heals me and ease all the pain.Well,this month gonna be my last month working though.I pray that i'll impact someone lives in my workplace before i leave.

Thirdly,STPM result is coming out real soon.I kept worrying of my result whether i can pass all my subjects or not and also kept thinking whether i can enter university to do my graphic design or not.But one thing just struck my mind that i must have faith in Him and not have worries in our Daddy God.My parents dont really agree of me taking up graphic design course but i believe that God given me this vision for a purpose and i know He has a really great plan for me in the future.
Thats all for todays update.Gonna keep updating!:)

im in need.

2010-09-30T09:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i asked myself this question ''is my way of helping others correct?'' Sometimes i feel stupid when i help those who doesnt even appreciate it.They will find me when they're in need and leave me when they're not.And when im in need,i have no one to help me through but except for God alone.I really want to impact others life by helping them but did i really impacted their lives?the answer is No.Whenever im in need,i really want to find someone just to be a listener to my problems but somehow i only can find Jesus and keeping it to myself.Seriously i dont like the feeling of hiding so many things inside myself.I feel like shouting all out.But Jesus just spoke to me one thing just now during prayer meeting when sherene prayed for me.Jesus spoke to me that,its okay if theres no one by my side because Jesus is always by my side listening to my problems.And Jesus also spoke to me that even if i have no one being by my side loving me,Jesus will always by my side loving me.He'll never leave me.
And lately i've been thinking alot about studies,my life,friends,family and alot more.I really wanna shout it all to God alone but somehow i just couldnt do it.I pray that i could able to overcome this with God' alone.

my final prom nite in school

2010-09-28T00:09:00.000-07:00

My final prom night has just ended which was yesterday.Frankly speaking,it was kinda bored like last year because firstly it held in school and secondly,everyone had to sit still in the hall watching all the performances.While the food,well no comment.It was not the best for me but i just ate it as i was starving that time.Well overall this year prom night doesnt turned out what i've expected.I took pictures with friends most of the time instead.After the prom night ended,i went for second round with my schoolmates at de garden.We went to pappa rich for a short supper then we walk around the 'de garden'.One of my friend decided to go Airport pub to have a look at the environment that is newly launched.As we stood outside the airport and have a look at the menu,it really stunned us as the price was so 'nice'.lol.but thank God that we didnt go as i dont like those place.Instead of going airport,we stood outside the airport pub and took picture of the airport poster.That was really made me LOL-ed. As we were kept posing with the airport poster for photo taking.Even the guard looked at us like one kind.haha.After that,we went around the area to pose and took pictures.Seriously this was my first time posing around with friends and taking lots of pictures.Well i'll upload the pictures soon and share with you all as i need time to collect all of my pictures from my friends:)Now everything has ended and stpm is just one month ahead.This could be my final lap before i am free from schooling life.And I have to work extremely hard for stpm to prevent any regretness by the end of the year and one the result day.And i need Jesus to strengthens me and work with me through it=)

taken by DSLR camera:)

home alone.

2010-09-09T20:48:00.000-07:00

Today im home alone again as my parents has gone down to KL to visit my sisters.I felt freedom although im home alone because im free from all the nagging from my mom.But she did called me a few times to checked on me.This morning i felt quite different than usual.Normally i dont talk much with my parents.But this morning when my parents going out to railway station by taxi,my dad actually told me to take care and my mom bid goodbye to me.I just kept quiet not because im being cool or what but i was stunned that time and do not know what to reply to them.I never experience this before.Although this might be a small thing or nothing to others but this is something for me.Anyway today is special compared to other days because i cooked breakfast for myself.It was not my first time cooking breakfast but it was my first time cooking pasta.lol.Normally my mom did all the cookings and my duty is to wait for it to serve:)MY first time pasta was nice i would say.lol.Gonna practice my cooking skill more.lol:)

an awful feeling

2010-09-08T16:00:00.000-07:00

Why am i having this feeling again?Deep in my heart,i felt being stab by a knife.Im trying not to think of it but somehow my mind keeps reminding me.Whenever i have this feeling,i feel like crying out loud but i held back my tears.I seriously feel so awful even right now.Whenever i got criticize by others,the scar in my heart is getting deeper.i wanted to attack back but somehow i gotta control my temper.i guess God is training me to be patience?I cant do anything now except look to Jesus.I pray that God will heal my broken heart.

outing with my bestie!

2010-09-06T16:32:00.000-07:00

Last saturday(4/9/10) indeed a memorable day for me.In the afternoon,i went for badminton with Sek Kit and Liyen.Kinda fun though kept crapping with Sek Kit and had a good conversation with him.Later at night,i went for steamboat with Sek Kit,Li Yen,Jia An,Sara and Khai Mei.I felt so good that i could able to spend my time with my friends like this again since the last time in secondary school.For once,i really felt the joy during that time.I believe that it was God's blessing upon me and my friends.But God dont do His duty half way.God do His duty to the fullness and in perfection.After steamboat,i went to Liyen's house to overnight because the next day we went church together.At night,i really had a good girls talk with liyen.Honestly,in secondary school i used to stick with my classmates only.And liyen,i would say i wasnt close with her that time.But God is awesome,because He brought liyen into my life as a true friend and a good sister.After chatting half way,we watched Maria Sharapova's match in tennis tournament(as requested by Sek Kit..lol).When i watched with their family,i really felt the warmness as a family.When i see their family's relationship that is so close and understanding,i felt abit of envy.But i believe that God will also do the same thing in my family.And although happy moments always pass so fast as if 2 times faster but i really do treasure it alot.Thank God for giving me this moments of experiencing the true friendship.And yeah im so glad seeing my friends accepted Christ as personal Lord and Savior.PTL!!

updates:)

2010-08-31T22:05:00.000-07:00

Finally i have time to update this blog.i've been abandon this blog for almost 2 months due to my trials exam and my laziness.Anyway there are many things happened these 2 months but im not gonna talk about the whole story.Trials has ended last week and i just got back my history paper 1 and economic paper 1.when i got back my papers,again disappointment filled my heart.I didnt do well for my trials.And getting 50 as a passing mark is so hard i would say.sigh.i keep thinking am i gonna really pass all my subjects in STPM? my faith has shaken whenever i got back my results.But thank God for speaking to and also through friends.i started to realised that friends around me are encouraging me to work hard in these remaining 2 months to STPM.Just now one my senior(elder than me a year) told me just study hard in these 2 months and i'll sure get at least B-.i was like wow,are u serious?He passed all his subjects in stpm last year.and he told me he just studied a few weeks before STPM and he passed.I promise myself again to really work hard in these 2 months.God also spoke to me through my classmate.He is one of the top students for history.He told me dont worry,i can pass my history in stpm.All i gotta do is to work hard.Im so touched and i know it was a message from God.

Anyway lately i've been out with my friends for outings.I feel so good when i get to meet up with my old friends and had a great time with them:) And yea i just wanna thank God for my friends Liyen,Sek kit and Jia an.It is God's calling upon them to go church:) i'll continue to pray that Jesus will touch them personally:)

Recently i am so into Big Bang.At first i dont really interested in Korean singers.But after listening to my classmates singing big bang songs and other korean songs everyday, i got influenced by them.

2 post in a row:)

2010-08-04T17:00:00.000-07:00

Another update:)
This post im gonna update about the badminton tournament that happened on 31st july 10:)I joined this tourney for the second time this year.This time tournament was a bit different than the first time i joined back in march.This time was opened to all forms whereas the previous one organized by the 6th form badminton club which was opened to form sixers only.For this tournament,i've participated in 2 categories: female double and mixed double.For female double,i've partnered with hannah.We won for the first game whereas we lost for the second game. We had a great time during the first game as we kept laughing while playing with See Kei and Chin Yin.While for mixed double,i've partnered with Lee Jia Zhen,a state player.We won for the first game too but lost in semi finals.Kinda disappointed though that we couldnt make it to finals where we gonna have match with Sek kit and Yean Kit.Before the semi-finals,jia zhen,me,sek kit and yean kit were saying that we must fight to the finals together.But sadly jia zhen and i lost in the semi finals.We were physically tired for the last game and i couldnt focus well and made alot of mistakes during the game.But overall indeed a good game.Jia Zhen taught me a few techniques while we waiting for our turn to play.At first i thought Jia Zhen was an arrogant person.He is so cool and didnt talked much when i kept talking to him.But i didnt give up by talking to him although i didnt get much of his respond.But after short while,he began to talk to me and we had a quite good conversation.Through this tournament i've gained new experience and my interest in badminton getting deeper.And i plan to go for a proper training after my stpm.

Updates

2010-08-04T16:22:00.000-07:00

finally i've time to update.im gonna tell u guys about my birthday celebration although it was few days ago.I would say that this year was really different than previous years.Since the year i was born till the 18th birthday,i never celebrated my birthday with my friends.What i did was just had dinner with my family.This year was really a great one i would say.Had a lot of surprised although i suspected quite a lot of things regarding the surprised celebration.Firstly was during CF meeting as my birthday falls on friday which i had my cf meeting every friday.Xue ning planned the whole surprised celebration with our cf members.I was really touched that i could able to celebrate with friends for the first.But the blessings didnt just stop there.God is so great that He even gave me a second celebration with my cell group members.Although it was a small celebration but it really meant a lot.After powerhouse i went to one of my comm members house for my final disco prefects outing.I did suspected that my disco members will throw me a surprise birthday celebration as one my members told me there will 'something special' for me during the outing.When i had my sharing with my disco members suddenly i saw some of them bringing the cake to me and they sang birthday song for me and i was really touched.After i made a wish they put creams on my face and they began with the water game.I glad that my last disco outing was the most memorable one=) Really thank God with His overflowing blessings=)

From CF

from VAL and family:)

from green team

from fareesh

from jia heng

from faiz

a netbook from my 3rd sister
and an "Anna Sui' perfume from my 2 elder sisters:)

everything has ended

2010-07-23T18:08:00.000-07:00

Everything has ended now.What has ended? Well,its about my prefects life.Everything has come to then end after a year of prefecting in school.Lately prefects were in a chaotic situation between teachers and prefects.And this has become the 'hot' topic among the students and outsiders.I really unexpected it to happen in prefectorial board.It was like a drama going on.Many prefects had left the board due to boycott of what the teacher doing.Later on,those who resigned were being terminated by the teacher incharge.I felt that was like having some game and see who got defeated?Recently most of us really stressed out with this matter and with all the gossips going in and out of the school.At first i planned to resign as well and follow the rest but after i've thought it over again,i've changed my mind to remain as prefect and 'tahan' untill the AGM (which is today).One reason that caused me changed my mind to remain in prefect is because of disco(discipline commission).There were a few things i've not finished .And today was the day that all of us,prefects,were waiting for it to come.This morning most of us were excited because its the AGM day.And everything will ends during the agm.But it does not ends what we expected it.And what had happened was far away from our expectation.Just a few minute before the meeting starts,we were informed that upper 6 and form 5 were not allow to attend the meeting which means that we were banned from the agm.I was like"WHAT?!!!" Imagine,we've been waiting for the agm to come and we ended up not allowed to attend.???!!I was so mad that time.How can they not let us to attend our last agm.??They are a few peoples who actually make out all these chaos.Although we couldnt attend the agm but we had our own agm.Many of us had shared alot of things,happy and sad things.We shared our joy and sorrow together.From there i realised that we do have a family and a strong one in prefectorial board.After our agm,we finally felt relieved.Although it was a rough ending for us but we are satisfied with it as we knew we have already won the battle.And im glad im officially retired from prefect and can sleep longer in the morning:)

Its okay=)

2010-07-03T20:19:00.000-07:00

Just came back from powerhouse.Well powerhouse was just like usual.But the only different was God spoke to me about my weaknesses and it literally linked to the problems that im facing.What Mei Sum shared was really powerful that whenever we face trials and tribulation,God will be right beside us and say ''Its Okay'' because God is here for us to bring us through the tough times.And what Edmond had shared to us was no matter what challenges we face whether is family challenges,studies challenges,friendship challenges or relationship challenges,God will help us through.God will not solve it by Hiimself for us but He will only help us because He wants us to grow.I pray hard that things will be better for the coming days.

bitterness + sourness

2010-07-02T23:12:00.000-07:00

Today really not my day.Right now im filled with bitterness and sourness in my heart.Listening to those discouraging words from others.And being alienated by others.Whenever others talking about something secretive,they'll give a signal to me to move away.I feel kind of hurt when seeing them like that but i couldnt do anything other than moving away to another place.I realised that my life now is full of discouragement that people gave me in school and also at home.i can forget what people had discouraged me in school but whenever i get home,there are even more discouragement to me.Many people says that discouragement is something like a challenge for us to do better.But what if the discouragement has over the limit?is it a good sign for a human?i feel that being discouraged too much by people,it'll pull my confident down to negative.I can honestly says that i'm a sensitive type of person.Why am i so sensitive is because i've been hearing a lot of discouraging words from others and thats why it made me to be like this .I'm looking for someone to be my listener to listen every of my problems but somehow i couldnt find a trusted one.All i can express my problems is to write it down here in my blog.And hiding myself at the corner with tears flowing down on my cheek.

I really thank God for my beloved sister Sara today to listen part of my problems and give me some guidance and motivation how to solve those problems.I'm not that type of person where i can express my problems in verbal contract.One thing that i agreed with her is that i love to keep things to myself.I wish that i could able to talk to her every single problems that i faced but somehow time doesnt allow me to do so as shes leaving for her university.Now i have to depends all by myself to hold on in this situation till after my schooling life.

RIP Park Yong-Ha

2010-06-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

South Korean actor and singer Park Yong-ha(acted the role of Kim Sang-Hyuk in TV drama "Winter Sonata.") has committed suicide in his home in Southern Seoul. It was shocking news for showbiz industry and for his fans as well. The attractive and young star found dead in his room and his body was hanging from a cell phone charging cable. Police are investigating and according to initial reports apparently it’s a suicide case. Police officials have refused to provide any further detail related to case. On Tuesday night he spent time with his father who is suffering from cancer and went to his room at 00:40am. After leaving he massaged his father, “I’m Sorry”. In the morning approximately at 5:30am when her mother went to his room she found him dead.

A source says that Park Yong-ha was depressed most probably due to his father’s illness. But now his fans want to know the exact reason of his death. They want to know was it suicide or someone killed him.
Last time he called his friend Kim Jae-joong(TVXQ's member) and when the news of his death went public Kim said,

"He sounded chirpy on the phone; I didn't feel like he acting out of sorts. We even promised to meet up when I'm back in Korea. I am shocked."

Well i'm not a fan of him but when i saw the news from tv,i was really shocked.Is a waste that he chose to end his life like that with his early age.He is not only good looking but he is talented as well.But we do not know what he is facing in his daily life.No one knows the main reason why he committed suicide.But one lesson that really hits me is that life is precious.
Well what i think that we,humans have one life.And when its gone and it will gone forever.Some people face problems that cant be solve or rather no solution and therefore commit suicide is the only solution to get rid of the problems.Actually there is a solution for every problems that we face, its just how we look through it.God created us.God gives us problems so that we could able to grow up and build our confident up when we go through those problem.God does not give us trials that beyond our strength.Commit Suicide is NOT a solution to get rid of the problems of our lives.Instead it is a SIN.
Well thats all.

May you Rest In Peace.

GLEE!

2010-06-18T18:25:00.000-07:00

Lately i'm kind of into Glee the comedy tv series.Love their songs so much! heres one of my favourite song by Glee:)

updates:)

2010-06-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

Yes FInally i've changed my blog layout.Now,i feel that my blog looks brighter compared to my old-dull layout.Anyway,first week of holidays has past and now left one more week of holidays before i get myself back to school.Time moves so fast that i cant imagine.How i wish i have more time.And whenever i think of time it automatically link me to STPM.ARGHH! 2months to trials..*Nooooooo!!!!!* Seriously i didnt do any revision for this whole week of holidays.Laziness keep haunting me..*ahhhhhhhhh* anyway i think i better not to continue mentioning about ASS TEA PEE AM.It drives me crazy.Seems like i actually have nothing to write so i guess i'll just stop here:)

Updates

2010-06-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

YeS!! Finally i have time to update this blog.Well exam has ended and it was such a stressful week for me.i seriously didnt have a good night rest as i slept at 3am every night during the mid term exams.Anyway not to mention how was my exams as i was not prepared to sit for it and my results, i bet it will be worse than i've expected to be.Not gonna talk about it anyway.Holidays is just around the corner.Well i have to really make full use of my holidays to work extremely hard for ASS TEA PEE AM(STPM).No playing and fooling around anymore.Sometimes I wonder what course should i study after my STPM?And the question ''what path will i take in the future??'' keep running in my mind.Seriously i'm still blur and not making up my mind to choose which path to take in future.That day my sis asked me what course i want to study after i completed my form 6.I do not know what to answer her as i'm still not decide yet.I personally wanted to further my study in art and design.But when my sis giving me a few courses like business management that mainly offers by the gov after STPM ,i was really confuse and doubt as business management is not what i actually want to study in future.And she said that if i want to change to design course,the fees will be more expensive as all my sisters will be sharing to pay for my education.I dont want to burden my sisters for using up so much money on me.So right now im kinda confuse of what course suits me and its affordable.Have to pray hard about it.My future is in God's hand.I really have pray that God will help me to decide which course i should take.And i believe God's decision is the best decision for my life.

Yea..another update about the choir competition that i mentioned in my previous post.well my school did not get any placing.Was kinda disappointed seeing their standard of performance has dropped.They didnt put enough of afford for this competition.After watching the recorded video,i have a few comments of why they didnt get placing was because the way they delivered the songs is not attentive enough.Seriously there were not dynamic and feelings in it and its too rushing.Well i think these are the reasons why judges didnt give them high marks.And the final results were AMC again the champion,Sam tet the 1st runner up and TCS as the 2nd runner-up.I've posted SMC,AMC and ST videos in youtube.Feel free to take a look of it=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ga32vQcfHNw&feature=channel
SAM tet Choir

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Mix98qv13o&feature=channel
SMC Choir

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjDXqWbOk4c&feature=channel
AMC Choir.

sick sick sick!

2010-05-13T21:07:00.000-07:00

Feeling very sick now and really hate this feeling.Had a terrible flu last night and that caused me to skip school today.Today when i wake up,feeling very tired and my whole body aching.I lost my voice also.Prayerfully i'll be recover completely by tmr morning so that i could able to go school.Has been skipping school quite often lately.Have to stop skipping school before i receive a warning letter from school.

Updates

2010-05-12T16:07:00.000-07:00

It is time to update my blog.Well MUET speaking has ended.Im quite satisfied with the topic given during my muet speaking test.I really thank GOd for answering my prayers that i got an easy question and managed to speak.Im not saying that i spoke very well during the test,there are some ''um...'' in between during my speaking but i managed to keep the conversation going.I really thank God that I don't have the feeling of nervous once i entered the room.I just felt very relaxed.When i sat down and looked at the question paper,I started to feel abit scared because i couldnt find where was the question when i was reading the instructions of the test.But once i looked further down,i found the questions and the question was:

Todays society more people want to lose weight,What is the main reason?
Task A
i.because of their health
ii.because of fashionable
iii.because of their job

iv.social pressure

I was in second session which was after recess and the first group to be tested.I was the candidate D which talked about social pressure.I could feel that God was really guiding me when i spoke during the test.Before i entered the room,my groupmates and I were very nervous.I looked at one of my group,John,he was so nervous and kept mumbling some words to himself and kept practicing how to greet the examiners.And then,just to release some tension,Su ling and I started singing by our own in the library to calm ourselves down.And the minute the teacher called us to registered outside the reference room,I started to say my last prayer in my heart before i enter.Really thank God that He answered every of my prayers.So overall,all of us were quite satisfied as the examiners kept nodded to our points while listening to us and they didnt comment anything about the point they are not clear or out of point.

Secondly,lower sixth intake had began on monday(10th May).Nothing much to say about the lower sixer.Just that it recalls me about my batch last year.Well one thing i dislike about it was that our place in canteen are fully occupied by the lower sixer during recess time.Thats all about the lower six.

Last Friday i went back to MC to see hows the choir progressing.Well they have a special choir teacher who is a trainee in MC.Their song selections are Putra Putri and The Glimpse of Malaysia.This time there is a slight difference compared to the previous years.The second song,the Glimpse Of Malaysia, consists of many type of language all over malaysia e.g:Iban,Kadazan, etc..Frankly speaking,i feel their standard dropped a lot compared to my senior's batch.80% of them are juniors and for soprano,most of them not strong enough to sing the soprano part.Quite disappointed when i listened to them singing.But maybe that was just beginning and hopefully they can do way better than that.After a short while,I met Valarie and we started chatting for about 40 min before we leave.Had a good conversation with her and misses her so much since the last time we met was last year during Kim's trip back here.Looking forward to meet Val again.Right here,just want to wish the choir group Good Luck on 25th May 2010.My support will always be with them.God bless=)

hopes=disappoinment

2010-04-27T22:25:00.000-07:00

My heart beats even faster whenever i see him.
Trying to have a proper conversation with him but i do not have the courage to have a topic to talk about.
Whenever i see him,trying to greet him but somehow i felt being ignored by him.
I maybe too sensitive or thinking too much?
Whenever i expect more,somehow it turned the other way round than what i've expected to be.
I have no chance to talk to him.When i want to talk to him,he'll just walk away.
I can only see him from a distance.
And I'm satisfied with it though thats not what i expected.

back.

2010-04-24T17:22:00.000-07:00

Muet exam has ended.I have the feeling that im gonna retake my muet again.Im quite disappointed that i didnt do well.I've wasted alot of time during my preparation and now i regretted for not making full use of time given to me for preparation.I did not managed my time well and caused me lack of time to finish my papers.sigh.Well everything is over now.All i need to do is to lift everything to God as i did my best.I pray very very hard to get at least band 4.nothing much i can do right now. I don't want to retake muet exam.Gotta pray hard for that.

Anyway tonight going to sam tet to watch the choir concert performed by sam tet choir and MIA ladies choir.and gonna support Qiu ning and kelvin ding=)

2010-04-16T23:47:00.000-07:00

The picture above tells it all.Will resume updates after my MUET exam which falls on the 24th April.Stay tune:)

Friends

2010-04-15T21:32:00.000-07:00

In our lives we meet many kind of people and we made a lot of friends.But finding a true friend is kind of hard in my opinion.Sometimes i feel so dumb to help a friend whenever they're in need but when they do not need you,they tend to ignore you and refuse to listen to your opinion.Well what does friends means?Basically friends means a person that is trustworthy,sharing all the joy,happiness or even sadness together and most importantly is to support each other.When a friend of mine is going through some issues,i decided to lend an ear to listen and tries to console by giving encouraging advise.But whenever i need someone the most to listen all my cries and problems,somehow they tend to help me in making decision according to what they think is right in doing something which is hurts me, without telling me.And the worse thing is that i just got to know that all the things that had happened is related to my close friend.I feel very hurt whenever i found out about it and i feel that i was being betrayed by a close friend.I do not know whom is my REAL TRUE friend.I really need a friend whom can listen to my cries,my hurts and not to make decision on behalf of me and respect me.I feel that it is pointless to help anyone whom always put me down.I love helping people but not to those who doesnt appreciate the friendship.

tired.

2010-04-11T17:23:00.000-07:00

Lately im feeling very tired day by day with my packed scheduled.School life is getting very hectic as everyone is busy preparing for STPM.A part from school,i also have to be committed in my church activities.I really dont know whether i can handle all these.I felt myself is getting exhausted and with all the pushing by my every teacher that teaches me.Feeling the pressure right now.But somehow i must hold on with this situation and keep pressing on till after STPM is over.Really pray hard that God will grants me extraordinary strength to move on.

SMILE=D

2010-04-04T20:50:00.001-07:00

A smile can brighten our lives.

One thing that Pastor Josef Chow impacted me is when he said that everyday is a Christmas day for him as he always put a smile on his face.This message really struck me as i realised myself always with the 'fu kua' face.(bitter face).Now i have to remind myself to put on a smile on my face as it does not only brighten my day but also brighten peoples around me just like the picture above.

new updates...

2010-04-04T20:30:00.000-07:00

Sports day had ended which was held on 1st April.Well my class marching lost as i expected it la but one thing im satisfied was my class had put some afford in the end compared to the first time we started our marching.From the beginning our marching was really a disaster but for the little co-operation that contributed by the classmates,we managed to finish up the formation although it wasnt a perfect one.We never aim for placing but we aim for the teamwork.All of us satisfied of our performance although we did not win.Well we didnt win doesnt mean we are losers.Anyway cut the story short,congrats to USA3 by achieving champion for class marching.They really done a great job with all the co-operation,affords and teamwork.They deserved to grab the champion.

And now come to my sad story.I've lost my wallet on APRIL FOOL day.A day that really FOOLED me.I've lost my identity card,driving license,atm card etc.I was so so upset but at the meantime i was angry also.I was angry because of the person who took my wallet.I wondered why is there such a person who likes to steal in SMI?.Does he has any wisdom?i mean does he ever think that when someone lost a thing,how does that person feel?I really want to find out that person and give him a lesson.Anyway i just pray to God,no matter what i really need back my important stuffs in my wallet forgetting about the money.

Well about easter..erm..as usual went to church.There was a pastor came from penang called Pastor Josef Chow.He came to ipoh and ministered in my church on friday,saturday and sunday(today).Really had a great service with him preaching.I was amazed that he could able to preach strongly eventhough he is at the age of 74.He look very tough and firm.Well not gonna elaborate it as it'll take a long time.After service,i saw a gong gong(he is edmond koh's grandpa btw) and he reminded me of my grandpa.Tears began to flow from my eyes as when i looked at edmond's grandpa as if im looking at my grandpa.This feeling was so sudden.I was so envied when i looked at ed's grandpa.I which i could able to look at my grandpa now and take care of him.But he's already gone now.Even now i always think that my grandpa is still alive and be with me.I just miss him so much.but i have to accept the fact that life must move on and letting go of the past.Let the past be the history and look forward for the future.

to my beloved SISTA!!!

2010-03-29T15:30:00.000-07:00

Right here i just wanna wish a very great friend of mine a happy birthday and she is none other than...*drum rolls*

Valarie Su-May Jalleh!!!!!!!
HAPPY 17th Birthday GIRL!!!!
(30/03/10)

so cute rite?

Jamming face

Me and her=)

Last Battle towards my Uni life!

2010-03-28T04:12:00.000-07:00

Times really moves so fast.Just a blink of an eye and here goes my upper sixth life and just a few more months towards STPM.Nervous is the feeling that always haunt me everytime i face public exams.I recall back my years when i first sat for my UPSR exam,I was very very nervous and worried i couldnt get good results.After i got my results,I began to say that UPSR is nothing but PMR is something.And when i was about to sit for my PMR,again the same thought.I worried i couldnt get good results that i expected and the teacher expected me to get.When PMR over,i felt that PMR kacang only.But i satisfied of my PMR results although i didnt get what my teacher expected me to get.But i've tried my best.And lastly there goes SPM.In form 5,i really thought that SPM is very very important for my life.I remembered i did played alot and enjoying during my form 4 and 5 life.But towards the SPM examination,i started to get nervous and panic.But thank God for sherene giving me tuition on Science and English Literature subject.I was satisfied with my science subject grade as i never before to achieve that grade when i was in the 2 years upper secondary.As for my EL,it was my first time pass my EL for SPM.Really appreciate the hardworks and afford and time that Sherene had sacrifice for me.But all these are the history of my life.Now is the LAST BATTLE towards my Uni Life.I cant believe i've come so far to this level so fast and it is the last stage of schooling and approaching Uni life.STPM! Really must study extra hard for this exam.This exam is totally difference than the past public exams.This time is not just nervous but feeling scary too.Anyway i just wanna wish everyone who is sitting for STPM this year,all the best and work hard to achieve great results,And May God bless all of you!

a terrible dream

2010-03-22T18:15:00.000-07:00

I would say today is a kinda bad day for me.Had a really sharp pain in my head this morning and it caused me cant stay focus in class this morning.I rested aka slept in class almost three period straight.And when i got back home,i took a nap.And theres this dream i dreamt.Its kinda frightening dream that i've never dreamt before.I dreamt that i was late for tuition and it was raining heavily.And all my tuitionmates were gone for tuition except for me and then i quickly run to tuition and as i ran, out of a sudden i was entered into a place where there have all the funeral services were taking place.I was kinda freaked out seeing all those funerals around me.Therefore i quickly ran and search for my tuition centre.As i was searching,i accidentally entered in a room where one of the funerals service were held and i saw the ''body'' lying on a table.I was stunned and suddenly a man approached me saying i have to join the funeral procession.And then i woke up immediately after that,And the minute i woke up,i prayed that Lord will remove whatever dream i dreamt that terrified me.THis is my first time having such a dream.I know dreams cant be reality but it really does frightened me.Will continue pray hard that i wouldnt get such a dream again.

bitterness

2010-03-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

Based on my previous post,i was having undescribable feeling that made me felt the bitterness.God really spoke to me about bitterness during todays sunday service.What does bitterness means?It means that causing a sharply unpleasant, painful, or stinging sensation; harsh,or resulting from or expressive of severe grief, anguish, or disappointment .God spoke to me that when bitterness hinders me which means there is unforgiveness in me.This message strucked me strongly that i actually have not overcome the unforgiveness.And what does forgive means?does it means forgive and forget?Well what i've learnt today was when a person forgive someone,he or she will not forget the incident as it is a huge problem for a person and its hard to forget.Dont get me wrong of it that forgive and remembers or holdings back the past.What i mean is human have feelings,and after the incident happened somehow it'll recall back in our memories.But God spoke to me that forgive which means letting go of it and the rest let God settle it.We will somehow recall back the incident but we have to learn to let go and move on.There are always greater things ahead of us.Let go the past and move forward to achieve something greater than our expectations.I really thank God that He did showed me a way to overcome it.Now is my job to let go.I know letting go of someone/an incident/or something that hurts me is very hard to do it but i believe that God will bring me through it and all i need is just time.

taking things for granted

2010-03-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

The undescribable feeling is back again.I just dislike this feeling.The feeling of bitterness has filled me once again.I really do not know how to describe this feeling.It is just undescribable.I realised i've been taking things for granted many many times.The commitment of Change doesnt exist in me.WHy??I've been given second chance to change and not to repeat the same mistakes and actions but somehow i took the second chance for granted.And whenever i realise it,i feel regretted of what i've done,my actions.what is wrong with me?i totally not realise of what im doing.I promise to myself to be conscious of what im doing but somehow things doesnt work that way.I do not want to lose such a friendship due to the things i've taken for granted.I just feel so bad.I pray that God will show me the way to overcome this feeling.i really wanna change and not to repeat the same things.I don't want to keep taking chances that given to me for granted.i just want to say i'm truly sorry although i've said it many times.i want to appreciate it.This might be another emotional post here but this is how i can actually pour out my undescribable feelings.

a song that impacted me=) -What about now by Chris Daughtry

2010-03-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

Recently i'm kinda addicted to the song ''What about now" by Chris Daughtry eversince after the Change Your World event.This song does impact me alot through the lyrics.Well this is just a simple update.Enjoy the song ya:)

Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading,

From all the things that we are But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.

*What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light.

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

Repeat Chorus *

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

badminton?

2010-03-17T17:40:00.000-07:00

Today had a badminton competition organised by my school's badminton club.Well it was my first time joining a competition that related to sports.Frankly speaking ,im not a sporty type of person.Sports is never my type at all.Even in my sports house in school i didnt take part in any events.Just dislike sports since when i was young.But after todays competition,i found that badminton is actually a good sports activity to me.I did enjoyed playing badminton today.I found out that i've always think negatives in sports activities and always tell myself that i cant play at all in badminton although most of my friends 'ajak' me to play last time when i was in secondary school.But after the competition,i realised that why do peoples like sports activities so much especially badminton.Even me myself addicted to badminton.Eventhough i've lost in the game today(but won in the first set),i didnt feel sad or anything because it was a good experience to me indeed,and a good start in playing badminton.Im gonna train more in badminton and looking forward for the next game:)

Todays post is kinda okay i can say after the two 'emotional' posts .Well gonna keep updating this blog as i was kinda left this blog dead in the previous time.

RUMORS!

2010-03-16T21:40:00.000-07:00

I bet everyone know what rumors all about right?Rumors is gossip (usually a mixture of truth and untruth) passed around by word of mouth.I do not know why in this world have such a thing call rumor.God creates human not to create rumors.Im so sick of being a topic as rumors.Why cant they just let me live my life being my ownself? I seriously find no advantages by creating rumors and spread to one and another talking about untruth things of others.Yes u can said that im a slut but do u have any proves?if u don't have proves,don try to spread it to others.i know that peoples who like to create rumors are the one who is LOA(abbreviation of lack of attention).I hate people who talks without using their brain cells and simply boast around and talking rumors to peoples about the untrue things.Why cant u stop ruin my life with your rumors??Is my life and not yours and u have no right to say anything about my life.How do i want my life be,is all up to me,and not you.Please look at your own life before u look at others life.Im just being myself.and you STOP creating RUMORS!

Rejection

2010-03-15T19:54:00.000-07:00

What does reject means?
From the dictionary it means; refuse to accept or acknowledge,disapprove: deem wrong or inappropriate.
Everyone in this world face rejection and some of them know how to deal with the rejection but what happen to those who cant deal with the rejection that they face?
Alot of things just came across my mind and i realised that i've always face rejection and i doesnt know how to deal with it and overcome it.I've faced many types of rejection and that leads me to fall into depression,hurts and being emo all the time.I'm just so tired of being rejected.Is it a curse for me?i wonder why am i keep facing rejection?I really need acceptance as i dont want to live a life that full of hurts,depression,loneliness and low self-esteem.I just wanna live a life with full of happiness joy and love.
I know that is it very hard to receive acceptance from others in this world but except God alone that hear all of my hurts and rejection and He is ready to accept me whenever i cry out to Him.
I just pray to God that He will grant me acceptance by others.

Circle?

2010-03-08T14:45:00.000-08:00

Why am i still remain in the circle?

I already know the answer but why am i still waiting for the answer?

Im living in a circle that keeps me going in the same problems that i encounter and it repeat again and again.

I do not want to get hurt anymore with the same deep hurt.

I'm just so tired of this repeated problems and the same old hurt.

Why do I have such a terrible feeling?

Would it be a better life for me without this terrible feeling?

I thought i was already got rid of this painful and tired circle but somehow I just realised that I am still in the circle that has no exit,

Why cant i just leave this circle?

I really don't want to remain there for the rest of my life.

I just want to get out of this painful circle.

Im tired of facing the same problems that will never make me grow instead of hurting me more and more.

I want to have freedom.

Free from the terrible feeling,

Free from the hurts,

Free from facing the same old problems.

I really need a breakthrough,

I used to tell my friends to guard their hearts when they have the same feeling as me,

But I,myself,

did not show an example of guarding my heart when i face the same thing.

Whenever i have that feelings,I'll just get myself in the trap without realising that it is a trap,the same old trap.

I tend to make assumption by my own according to what i observed and feel

But somehow the assumption that i thought of, was just the opposite of the reality.

I told myself that I will remain strong when problem comes but I am getting weaker and weaker from the inside.

Is this what all the trials about that God is testing me?

I really need the strength from God.

Im seriously tired of this circle.I really want to destroy it once and for all!

to my beloved friends

2010-03-02T14:40:00.000-08:00

Right here just wanna wish happy birthday to 2 of my friend who share the same birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KWOK SING AKA SING SING

AND

SANDY NG AKA NENEK MOYANG

(04/03/10)

The Journey Of Life

2010-02-22T20:34:00.000-08:00

It was a rough chinese new year this year.i have lost my loved one during this chinese new year.Everything is just so sudden that i really cant imagine it.The journey of his life had reached to the end on 20th February 2010.He had being strong during his journey.i never forget the moments we spent together,the moments how he took care of the four of us and the moments he used to share his stories when we were young.But now im feeling full of regrets that i neglected him when he was really in need.I didnt really took care of him and complain so much whenever i got the chance to visit him when he was ill.Im so sorry of being an uncaring grandchildren to him.If he can read this,i wanna take this opportunity to apologize on everything that i've done.He is my only grandpa that watched me born to this world and took care of me since i was born.He had impacted my life so much in the sense of protecting me from all the scoldings and beatings by my mom.He was like a babysitter that he babysits me all the time.Time passes so fast and now is the time for him to rest peacefully after a long journey of his life.i would say that indeed a great journey for him.As a lesson for me,appreciate and care for my loved ones when i still have the chance so that as i bid goodbye to this world one day,it will be a satisfying and with no regrets journey of my life.All the memories that he had given me will be remain in my heart till the very last breath.And i pray to the Lord for protection over his soul. i believe that eventhough he had gone,he still can read this.
A message to my one and only beloved Grandpa:
I LOVE YOU!!
You're always my strong and caring grandpa!
thanks for impacting and guiding my life!
I promise you that i'll appreciate and for everyone around me.
May You Rest in Peace!
Goodbye!

我爱你！
你总是我的强烈和关心爷爷！
感谢影响和指导我的生命！
我答应你，我会喜欢和我周围的每一个人。
愿你安息！
再见!

In Love With You piano version..

2010-02-20T17:27:00.000-08:00

i wish i can play like them:)

the LOVE of my loved one

2010-02-19T00:38:00.000-08:00

My memories of my childhood has recall back when i see him lying on the bed looking ill.Tears begin to flow from my eyes looking at him not able to talk,to walk and to eat properly.I feel bad that im not able to do anything for him to get out of this bad condition.He is getting older and older everytime i visit him.Whenever i see him lying on the bed looking ill it recalls me when i was young how he took care of me.When i was young,i spent most of the time with him.I remembered he always took my sis and i for evening walk and wait for my return from school by bus.i still remembered he always like to chit chat with my sis and i when we were young.He even took care of our pets(rabbits and a dog).And now all of us have grown up and he is getting older and looking more ill.I feel so touched whenever i visit him,he will recognise me.I still remember he once was a strong man with a loving heart who always carried me to everywhere and now he is so weak but i still can say that he is still being strong from the inside.Today my parents,my 2nd sister and i went back to see him as he having a high fever since yesterday.His condition now is getting more ill and seeing him breathing difficultly and giving a weak response when we talk to him.I feel really terrible seeing him in this condition.He'll be admitting to hospital soon when my aunt is back from kl.I pray hard that he will get well soon no matter what.
Although he wont be reading this but i just wanna say to him that no matter how weak is his health is now, he is still a strong,loving and caring grandpa to me.i pray that Jesus will heals him and grant him strength to go through this obstacles.

an AWESOME day out

2010-01-31T23:30:00.000-08:00

I guess the title tells it all la..but im gonna elaborate it also.
Yesterday i really had an AWESOME day with KIMBERLY AND VALARIE!!!
After so many month didnt see each other,and finally we got to spent time again in jamming,crapping,laughing non stop,singing off-pitched and lots more.I really enjoyed it alot la.I just so miss the days in my secondary school where we actually spent our time almost everyday during recess and kept ponteng-ing class and hide in the chapel.And also jamming in class when there was no teacher.Kinda sad also that i can only met up with val and kim as most of my gang members not back yet.sad:( And also not forgottne carmen le,she supposed to join us but last min changed of her plan that she needed to go Jelapang.sigh.Really hope that one day i can actually meet up with everyone and have a great jamming session.

Okay lets focus on what we did yesterday.As i already mentioned that we had jamming session.We kept crapping alot during jamming and i kept singing off-pitched.It really fun seeing kim and val play guitar again and the harmonica.Its been a long time since i ever see them jam together.We've done some recording too.Val's mom helped us to record.Thanks to auntie Theresina.And also thanks to Martin Jalleh for the transportation back.
Here are some pics and recordings.Sadly recordings couldnt be able to play here.For more info,pls visit my facebook ya..thanks=)

SS me..yeong sui me..

The Bergaya in action *o*

The Joker in action..lol

THe Both of them!!

Today had a great day too in SAM TET.I went to sam tet at 12somthing after my church morning service.I went to sam tet to see their choir and qiu ning is involve in the choir.Today Susanna Saw,choir director from kl,came to ipoh to train SamTet choir.I've learnt alot from Susanna's teaching today although im kinda awkward la sitting at the corner and watching them practising.I was quite amazed by their choir and honestly speaking that they are way better than my previous school choir but somehow i still support my own school.=)
i've done some audio recording too but i couldnt upload it la as the format not suitable.sigh.
thats it=)

signing offf--

2010-01-29T23:15:00.000-08:00

Finally i have a time to reactivate my blog here.Its been a long time didnt get to update here as im kinda busy with school and kind lazy to update it.Lately,i've encountered a lot problems but not gonna talk abt it as it'll take days to talk abt it.Well lets jump back to topic,today my school life same as usual la except in the morning kinda moody and got distracted by something which im not gonna mention it.While towards school dismiss,Mr. K came to my class and scolded us (as usual la) as my class were very noisy(im one of the noisy one) and disturbed his class so he came over and bombard us nicely saying that we are like hooligans. Then out of sudden,K started his boiling button and scolded my class rep and wanted to slap him.K also tried to threaten him either he'll slap jon(monitor) or call his father to see him.Jon chose to call his dad to see Mr K.and they had a short conversation and everything solved in the end.I feel sorry to Jon also le cause i caused him got into trouble.This time really my BAD..IM SORRY..

After school,i went for compilation for awhile and unexpectedly compilation cancelled last minute AGAIN! thanks to Vellu~sigh
Since no compilation,the whole disco went to town together to settle the orders for the fundraising stuffs.Its the first time that i ever go out with my members together.I felt like a big family spending time together although just a short while.I reached back to school at 2pm and quickly rushed back to Main Convent by hannah's car to attend the choir prac.I reached parade at 2.10pm and by the time i reached MC was already 2.30pm due to my leg's hurt that caused me to walk slow i injured my toes thanks to my prefect shoes..sigh.
When i finally reached MC,it brought me disappointment.As i promised Valarie that i'll be dropping by and went to search for her but failed.In the end i saw Navithra and asked her abt the choir prac and then i finally found out that the prac has cancelled last minute.Really brings me to disappointment le.sigh.But one thing that i really gained when i went back to MC is that i began to remember those memories with my bestfriends in MC last time.I really miss that place and my friends too.I wish to have a turn back time and enjoy once again the moments i spent with my beloved friends.But i know i can only dream of it but not for reality le.I hope i can really get to meet up with all of them again at our memorable place.
Miss them lots!!!!!!

Welcome 2010.

2010-01-01T03:36:00.000-08:00

Another year has passed.Another new year has reached.let go the passed in 2009 and face the new things that yet to come in this brand new year.Towards the end of 2009 there was a tragic incident that really gave me a big wake up call.Although i didnt involved in that incident but i know that this was what God reminds me and spoke to me for this brand new year.The incident was on 26th of December 2009 where the double-decker bus crashed at the highway in night time.10 victims were died at the scene.This incident has given me a message saying that we must treasure every second of life we have now as we do not know what will happen next.Many people likes to procrastinate (and i'm one of them) things that undone as we might think 'well..i'll do it later..and so on' but do we actually think that we have so many days to delay?Well based on the incident our lives is very precious.Once its gone and thats it.We wont have so many days to delay our undone things.This message is really strike my mind whenever i heard about this accident news.One of the 10 victims were rushing home for engagement but she just leave this world just like that.We really dont know what will happen next second but only God knows everything.I believe this message its from GOD who presented to me for this new year,new season of life 2010.We must treasure every second with our loved ones before we have no chance.As everyone on this earth will leave the world one day so this is the time where we really treasure everyone around us before we actually meet our Creator in Heaven.Do everything that is undone before we dont have the chance.Theres a story that is similar to this message was during one of the christmas open house nite on 23rd of December 2009.A sister from my chinese church was telling about her father.There was a time when she was young before she came to know Christ,she asked her dad for giving her money.And the dad said ''ok,i'll give you tomorrow.'' But sadly the dad couldnt meet the 'tomorrow' that he promised his daughter to give her money and just leave the world like that.See,our lives is really so precious.We always depend on 'tomorrow' but we did not thought of how many 'tomorrow' are there for us.We really dont know.So for this message it reflects to me that we must not depend our duty on 'tomorrow'.If its today's duty just do it by today without depending it for 'tomorrow'.Thats what all i wanna write for this new year 0f 2010.Greater things are yet to come in 2010 so lets enjoy it with a Big bang and experience new things:) HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE=)

IM BACK!

2009-12-08T02:26:00.000-08:00

This blog has been dead for months ago.And now im finally back to make this blog alive.crap.Well well well..i couldnt find a time to update my blog due to the hecticness of my school and church stuffs.Firstly i want to say is i've just came back from LTC prefects camp at lumut.It was my first and my last prefect camp i can say.Well what do i think about this LTC?Urmmm...no comment.Quite fun le but it was not as happening as i expected.But its kinda relaxing when i chilled with new faces in camp.ANd the best was i ENJOYED MARTIN's session.HE's a great motivator seriously.Im so salute him..THanks MARTIN!!! LTC was 4 days 3 nites.First 3 nites was ok la..quite relaxing although we were tired cause didnt had enough sleep.While the last day not so good as MR K mood swang and simply bombard everyone.Overall camp was ok and i missed those time where we able to meet with new faces and get-to-know them well
session.Well thats the main purpose of having a camp rite?ANd im so glad for MARtin's session as he really motivated us about being a ourselves.Well im not gonna talk about it as it'll take a century to write.lol.

Well lets jump to another updates.Yeah finally i got to meet up with SARAH AND CHERYL during the coga christmas celebration on 28th nov 09.We went to studio for prac for our performance a few days before our performance la.Couldnt snap alot of pics le.but heres a few ni.

the band in studio

Makcik SArah

Mak Cik Sarah take 2

ME and HEr the JOKER antarabangsa!

Sorry didnt snap any pic of my performance,Waiting for my teacher to upload her pictures in facebook then i'll post it here.

Next is about my youth caroling performance in Jusco.IT was my first time performed carolling in public places especially in mall.Well it was God's blessing indeed to let us carol in public places to let ppl out there to know about young children of God singing for our Lord and Saviour JESUS CHRIST.
Afew shots of the performance had taken.heres some of the shots of my performance.For more pictures pls visit my facebook.thanks=)
Next event will be the Christmas Production performed by HTS youth.
updates to be continue.....

2009-11-01T02:08:00.000-08:00

Its has been a long time since the last update and now im back to blogging.This is due to my busyness for exams and some schools stuffs and also my laziness to update this blog.Well exams just over and i can say with confident that i didnt study for this exams.But did some last minute study but still not enough.I have a feeling that i'll fail all my subject again.No idea how am i gonna explain to my parents when they see my results.Anyway,lately i've been really upset le because something.not gonna mention it here in details as it is too personal.But somehow i really wanna thank God with my girl friends as they really a supportive friends whenever i i try to give up.Anyway on sat(31st Oct 09),had a sixth form night held in school.Well overall was boring le..I did performed in a band.Overall my performance was ok le although we did alot of mistakes.I leave at around 9pm and went for snooker after that together with one bunch of girls(esther,sook mun,annie,Qirian and me) and one bunch of guys(yew chuan,yoon hong,edwin and nelson).Went to greentown and met up with nich ling and joanna then we went for snooker.After awhile,sook mun,yew chuan,yoon hong and me went for supper at delight somewhere near the snooker centre.Then later on,the rest came and join us except for nich and joanna.I got home after supper around 11pm.So basically thats my day la.Nothing special happened:) Anyway this week gonna be my fasting week.Im gonna have a liquid fasting this whole week.Gonna fast it for the 'Fresh Encounter with GOd' function in my church.So i think thats all for today's post.
And yeah u can check out my sixth form night pics in my facebook.Not going to post my pics here as it'll take hours to upload it.http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?v=photos&ref=name&id=795413430#/album.php?aid=119008&id=795413430

holidays plan

2009-09-20T20:52:00.000-07:00

Holiday had started and most of my friends came back edi.But i still couldnt get to meet them as i was not free when they were free.Holiday started and i still have to go to school for practise for farewell performance.I think this holiday i wont be able to meet up with my friends as most of them will be going back to their studies place on tuesday.sigh.
Kinda sad le couldnt hang out and chill with my old friends like we always did in the previous years.Seriously i really really do miss them eversince i came to form six.Miss my life in MC.
Well,a message to all my friends who are still in secondary school.Treasure your friends now and enjoy every little moment in school as you wont be experience again the moments in secondary school.We will meet different kind of people when we go to another season of our lives.So treasure your friends now and don't grumble in studying.As it is the best moment of life.It has less pressure and have a bunch of craziness joyous jokers and friendly people surrounds us to lighten up our daily life.
I've regretted for not treasure it nicely as now i feel i really missed out the best thing in my life which is treasure and appreciate.Not to say that my current friends in my new school not good la..but seriously i really do miss my friends who have been my friend for 5 years and some for 2 years. Thanks alot for the every moments.

Sarah and Cheryl came back edi but Sarah balik kampung edi.I really hope that i can meet up with the both of them.Cheryl will be going back to kl on saturday while sarah not sure yet.Have to pray hard so that i can meet up with them.

Really want to thank GOd for answering my prayers and thank the youth for praying for me.
Mommy finally allow me to go Cameron with the youth tomorrow.Before that i asked her twice but she didnt allow me to go.Heres a short conversation with mom.

(mom was nagging me and warning me not to curi-curi drive the car out by myself when shes away for kl on the coming tuesday or wed and then the conversation goes like this)

During lunch
me: i might be going cameron on monday la..
mom: Going with who?
me: with church friends...
mom: who allow u to go huh?nowadays always rain somemore nowadays got many cases about landslide.So u better dont go ahh!(in a fierce expression)
me:*speechless* (with the pissed off face)

At evening (raining)
me: Eh mi,i go cameron ah..
mom: you see the weather now..still want to go ah..CANNOT
me: *pissed off*

Then today during youth,we have a gathering of groups and pray for tomorrow outing.My group members prayed for me so that my mom allows me to go.Then when i got home,my mom wasnt at home then i took a short nap while waiting for her to come back.I slept till 6.40pm but she still hasnt back yet so then i called her but before that i prayed that God will change my mom decision.And heres the short conversation in the phone.

me:where are you now wor?
mom: im coming back la now.
me: eh i go cameron ah tomorow?
mom: who said u are going?i havent say anthing u already promise ppl.Always go here and there.later raining then u know.
Me: aiya can la...wont rain wan la..
Mom: when are u coming back?
Me: Tuesday afternoon.
Mom: *pause for awhile* always like to go out...
Me: aiya ok la can la...

(hang up the phone)

so the conclusion is IM GOING TOMORROW!! YEAH!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

BAD DAY!

2009-09-10T22:23:00.000-07:00

Really had a bad day today.I felt so frustrated with everything i do not know why.I learning to be more self control but somehow i just couldnt control my temper.I got so fed up of every little thing that does not satisfied me today.I feel guilty for ah xue as we did had some arguements just now in church after tuition.Had econs tuition today with some of the LA3 students and included ah xue.Tuition ended at 6.30 and rushed back to my house to bathe and go to church for english tuition.When i got home after econs tuition i did had little quarrel with mom.Really couldnt control myself of releasing my anger to someone.I really did feel guilty of arguing with ah xue and my mom as well.During english tuition really felt not comfortable dont know why.I feel that all these things are come from the Satan.Satan is destroying me and using me to hurt people around me.I really gotta pray hard to destroy the satan works.I must have SELF-CONTROL! Just want to say sorry to whom i've released my anger on and to ah xue and my mom.I pray that God will control me and guide to be more self control and to guard my heart.Starting now onwards i MUST CHANGE! i really dont want to live a life that full of hatred and anger.As the bible said anger is part of foolishness.I dont want to be a fool that fooled by satan.In my life,theres only one person that can control me and He is Jesus.I only want Jesus in my life.not the devil!
Today's post quite emo..so sorry..i just want to write out how i feel right now.As i hardly talk to someone about my feeling.thats all for today.

2009-09-10T00:24:00.000-07:00

My favourite video.
Admire their moves alot:)
check the video out below:D

raya cuti?

2009-09-04T20:47:00.000-07:00

Raya cuti is just around ther corner.What i plan to do during this 'cuti raya' is to meet up my old friends.Its been like ages since the last time i've hang out with my friends.Mostly are sarah,cheryl,ee laine,kimberly,lyn,karmen,khai mei,annyan,and valarie.I miss them lots and lots...And i just receive a sms from sarah saying that she'll be coming back on 19th this month.YAHOOOOO!!!! she'll be my driver and gonna explore the whole city of ipoh..YEAHHH!!! well that if she free la.hopefully she'll free during one of her cuti raya...

since is raya im going to use some BM here:)

ini ialah VALARIE JALLEH.dia ni ialah saya punya so call best friend of mine.a sister-like friend.walaupun younger than me 2 tahun but dia ni ialah seorang yang understanding friend! SANGAT RINDU AKAN DIA.

Ini ialah Khaimei saya punya 'lai ma'(pengasuh) rightannyan(left)

INI ialah karmen(right)Ini ialah LYN:)

Ini ialah Kimberly aka DUDU.

INi cher-yl:)

INI tauke aku SARAH!!!(left)

i shall stop here.ciaos:)
Sekian terima kasih
yang amat berbahagia,
Datin rachelkoh:)

God's healing..

2009-08-24T19:05:00.000-07:00

I just want to thank God for healing me.Lets flashback a few days ago..On the last day of drama (16th aug) i had a very bad cough.I thought its just a common cough and i just leave it and let it cure by itself.Then the next day i had a very bad flu too.And again i thought it was a common flu where i always get.During that evening,i took some medicine for my cough and went to PA tuition.During tuition i was really drowsy and kept coughing non stop.Then went back home and my mom took me to see doc.Doc assumed that im just having flu and cough allergic.Then last saturday night i felt very sick.I had no appetite and mom asked me to have some 'tong sui' and so i listened.After an hour,i began to feel dizzy and felt like vomiting.Then i sat down for awhile and suddenly i vomited a few times.I felt really terrible.Then my parents brought me to see doc again at 2am.When to the clinic,and while the doc checking me i almost vomit on him.The doc was freaked out seeing me like this.After vomiting i requested to take injection to stop my vomiting.And so everything goes well.I really want to thank God for protecting me.At first i really scared that i'll be the one of the h1n1 cases but really thank God for His wonderful works in me.Thank GOd for healing as well.

miss those moments....

2009-08-19T22:12:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time i didnt update my blog since the last post about the band competition..I was quite busy before this due to school play.And now everything has ended and school life is back to normal.I simply miss drama alot.i've learnt alot in drama especially in acting.I was not good in acting and i have a stage fright whenever i go on stage.but now i've overcome it simply because i've been practising to overcome it during drama time.Hereby i would like to thank Master Timothy Chee for given me this opportunity to use the talent that hidden in me.Sometimes i do complaint alot about master but seriously his a good director indeed.THanks Master!U've made this drama a success.Without u things does not turned out so successful.I'll remember the times in drama and same goes in colourguard.Miss those moments.miss skipping class too:)

heres some of the scene in drama.

The End

a memorable day for mmb

2009-07-26T01:43:00.000-07:00

24th July 2009 was a memorable day for me.This is my first and my last time performed in Michaelian Military Band.It is undescribable the feeling when i was on the field with the band performing in marching band competition.While we were waiting for our turn to perform,the feeling that i had was really scary.i was not nervous but worried.the reason i was so so worried because i did alot of mistakes during the rehearsal on that day itself.The rehearsal was a disaster for us and after rehearsal i was so scared and worried that i might do wrong during the real performance.Then i did my self-prayer for 3times.Suddenly God spoke to me that He had place me in the band for a reason,and He will guide me through no matter what difficulties that i was facing and lift all the worryness unto Him and enjoy every moment when i was on the field.With that powerful prayer,i just be myself and performed and show the talent that God gave me.And finally WE DID IT by getting 2nd placing.We expected 3rd placing but really didnt expect that we got 2nd placing its a miracle.THank God for blessing the band although we did everything last min.THank to the CG team also although we faced alot of problems when we were working together.It filled with arguments,laughters,sadness.scoldings and craziness!! i just simply miss the fun in CG.thanks guys!I would like to Thank GOd for forming this group of ppl in CG and kept strengthen us although we were exhausted before the competition day.And thank for MMB members as well as they given us this opportunity to use every of our talents to help the band and thanks to them for supporting us all the way.Thanks MMB!

anyway to cut the story short the results of Perak MArching Band 2009

Champion-SAM TET
1st runner-up-ST MICHAEL IPOH
3rd runner-up-Nan Hwa
Best Colour GUard-Nan Hwa
Best Drum Major-Sam Tet

heres the short clips of MMB on the battlefield

updated!

2009-07-18T10:13:00.000-07:00

Finally im back to blogging.im actually quite lazy to update but since everyone ask me to keep this blog alive so i've decided to continue blogging.Lately quite busy with alot of stuffs and that is why i have no time to online.Alot of things happened lately and also it affected my mood.i was quite moody due to alot of problems e.g studies,exams,band,drama,BGR,and etc.Out of a sudden i feel myself very tired of everything,physically and mentally tired.hopefully this will lasts soon.Anyway thats all about me.
New updates of what i've been busy with lately:
First is about the band competition.sorry for not updating the previous post that i've posted long time ago.lets refresh what had happened to the band.1st of july 2009 was the preliminary round for MMB.and for the good news we are heading to the finals which is on 24th of july 2009 at stadium.Lately colour guards members had faced alot of problems regarding whether to join the band together for the finals or not cause of our performance not up to standard to perform neither to compete but yet now we've decided to join them.and now its exactly 1 week to our competition.i wonder how is it feeling when the first time to step on the battlefield.well i'll pray hard that whatever time we have now,we will cherish it and polish up everything in CG so put up a good show.whether it is win or lose it doesnt matter,as long as we satisfy after we put up a great show to all the ppl in stadium.Michaelian and ex michaelian pls do come and support us ya!may god bless MMB!!!!

Second i wanna highlight is about SMI play.this year play is 'The Warlord of Terror".nothing much to say about it.if anyone interested u can order from me for the ticket.thats all for now.
To BE Continue.......

2009-06-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

Finally im back here.Its has been a month since the first of form 6th.My life in form 6th has slowly change from bad to good.I thought i would never gonna enjoy i=my life in form 6th but after a few weeks there things and people around begin to change.Im quite satisfied my life here in form 6th though doing form 6th its not gonna easy but i have confident to go through all the challenges that soon im gonna face.

First sem holiday had started.but for me,i still need to go to school for practices.First is the drama practice.This year play gonna be fun.although im involved as a dancer and a stand in but i can say that this play gonna be great.and best of all im glad that our very own Master Timothy is back to conduct this play as his last play that he going to work for smi.Thanks master for making his precious time to direct this play.This year play is called 'The Warlord of Terror'.so to all readers,pls come and support us on the 14th,15th,16th august.to book tickets,u can drop a msg on my chatbox there.ticket will be out soon.

The second thing that im quite busy about is the band competition this year.Prelim is just around the corner which is on 22nd june 09.i just want to wish all mmb members all the best and i believe this year we will make a history for the band once again and once we march on the battlefield,we will do it with confident and tell all the people in the stadium that we can do it.The finals will held on 3rd july at the stadium.michaelian do come and support us.
With Pride Shall We March~

2009-04-01T00:25:00.000-07:00

Finally im back to blogging.Some of you might be wondering why am i still here?ain't im suppose to be in NS?well for those who doesnt know,i already escaped from NS.How to escape?Well i have a medical letter from the doctor.The reason i can escaped from NS its due to my skin problem.I have some skin disease called eczema and be more pacific i have this skin problem called atopic dermatitis.Well its not a VERY serious disease its just a common skin problem.After they approved me that im exclude from ns,i felt abit of regret of not going ns.I did change my mind last minute that i wanted to go ns but too bad it was too late.Mom scolded me nicely for kept changing decision.Well its really wasted for not going ns.Not everyone have the chance to go ns.And frankly speaking i did wasted this opportunity life-changing experience camp.I really did not appreciate the chance given to me to go.sigh.well nothing ic an do now.Planning to work part time,i already asked for part time job in jusco but soon to be confirm.well hopefully they will contact and start work asap.

I've been quite busy lately.Went back to school for about more than 2 weeks i guess.Was really tiring spent almost the whole day in school.The reason i went back to school so often lately its because of my ex-school choir.Sarah,Cheryl and me went back to see the choir and help them out.I really did had a lot of fun with sarah and cheryl during the choir practise.We were kept fooling and crapping around in school and also in Cheryl's house.Other than that,Sarah and Cheryl created a new song for next year choir and we were kept singing the song together in school while the choir were having breaktime.It was so much fun when we got together.I really treasure a lot the moments i had with both of them and the choir.Time goes very fast but the memory will remains in my heart.I really do hope that i'll have another chance to go back to school with my choirmates and to perform again.Anyway to cut the story short,today is the day for the choir competition.Still in the same zon and the result is the same as last year's result.
Champion:AMC
1st runner-up:SAM TET
2nd runner-up:SMC

And heres the video of SMC Choir

Selected Song-Gemilang & ABBA medley

win or lose i'll praise Him

2009-03-12T23:20:00.000-07:00

Finally im back to blogging after so long for not updating this blog.Yes!Today is the day for all the spm candidates for the batch of 08' to take results.well mine i cant say much its out of my expectation and its quite disappointed for me.Theres nothing i can do to change my results.But one thing i can say is i already tried my best and this is the results of what i did for the past 2years.Thank God although it is not that good by better than nothing.No matter wins or lose He deserve all the praise and therefore i praise Him.Thank you Lord=)
Next up i might be leaving for NS on the 20th march.Trying to apply for exception but yet to be confirm.i dont feel like going ns hopefully i could escape from it.And for your info my campsite is in Taiping,Selama Kampung Teras Mesra.If anyone of u get the same place as me pls inform me by dropping your message at the chatbox on the right side ya.will be looking forward to meet ya in NS=)

Driving Test

2009-01-22T19:15:00.000-08:00

Yes YEs..Today is the day for my driving test.Guess i pass or fail? well i passed my test..Although i passed but i still feel moody.Why?because of one of my tester who incharge of driving to the road.Well flashback to the practise lesson.During practise my slope,3way point and side parking were totally FAILED while my driving was ok during practise.But surprisingly today the first thing i went was the slope part,i've talked to myself im going to fail but before i go for the slope i said a prayer to myself and went on to do my slope part.It ends up i really did it the slope part although my car engine died before i put up my hand.Really thank God for that.I did said a prayer for the other 2 test which are side parking and 3 way point.And i really did it perfectly.Really thank God.Then as i thought that my driving was ok then i went for the last test which was the driving.First i was very very nervous but i said to myself that i can do this with Christ who strengthens me.Then i went on to drive.the minute i start driving the tester kept on scolding me all the way to the S road and all the back.He gave me alot of pressure till i forgot where to put signal and where to turn.I kept saying sorry to him and he kept SCOLDING me like nobody business.When i returned to the place where i started,he still scolding me and ask me "Amoi,u mahu kandas?" means he asking me whether i want to fail anot.He such a ridiculous person asking ppl whether want to fail anot.Duh!!Of coz everyone want to pass la ..haih..But anyhow i just want to thank God for guiding me and being there for me throughout the whole test,I really did felt His presence there.thank you Jesus!!!!!

And hereby i shall end it:)

2009-01-05T23:56:00.000-08:00

Its been a year since the last time i updated my blog.Well seriously i was kind of busy after my spm examination.First thing im busy of was christmas drama production in my church.Its kinda fun practicing with my youth friends.Other than the drama practice,i was also busy preparing for the christmas carolling.Its was amazing spending time with the youth during caroling.Time flies and we reached the Big day which was the Christmas day.It was quite tiring for all of us but indeed we still had the strength to 'chiong' through.After Christmas,there goes our end year Youth Camp at Gopeng.Seriously the camp was amazing because i got the chance to do something that i've nvr did before in my life.We had activities such as caving(and i mean really caving),jungle tracking(i fell down and hit my butt due to the slippery ground),then v had body rafting(dunno how to spell it).During the camp Pastor Ryan shared about changing our mindset.It was a powerful message for all of us.We also had some competitions and there were singing,dancing,modelling and an additional competition is T shirt design according to the theme of Light Of The World.Well overall it was awesome,im so glad that i ended 2008 well.

There comes the new year of 2oo9.Well nothing to talk about at the starting of the year.But i got things to write about for today.Went for driving lesson today,the first lesson for 10hours learning.Well today i was not fully awake dunno why,then when i reached city ipoh my instructor asked me to drive out to the road.I was stoned but okok ler..Then went back to the city ipoh area and did side parking,slant part and 'tiga penjuru'..When i did the slant part,i've got scolded by my instructor.Wow he kind of fierce.I did failed to do the slant part and each time i failed he scolded me.Then i kept on said sorry to him.The next thing was again he ask me to drive out on the S road then he ask me to drive back home.I could hardly control my steering well and he scolded me again because of that.When im on my way home,i nearly fall asleep and the car was heading to one side,then my instructor scolded me AGAIN and quickly adjust back the steering.It was scary but quite fun also,at least i've learnt something new and also NOT TO FALL ASLEEP AGAIN.I was quite tension when my instructor said to me 'YOU'RE FAIL' when i failed to do the slant part.When i came back home,i really did feel scared because im worried that i couldnt pass my driving.Suddenly i remembered my instructor ask me why am i react so slow when he ask me to break during the slant part there.i started to question myself why is my reaction so slow.Are my neurones having some problem that causes them not t function well?i really worried.My next lesson is on friday,i really pray to God that i wont repeat all the mistakes that i did today and i pray to GOd that i wont get scolding so much by my instructor.Thats all for today.

----------------SiGninG OFf-------------

MERDEKA!!!!!

2008-12-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

Hey ya to the readers!!!! its been a very long time i did not write new post..Well first thing im wanna talk about my exam..As everyone knows tht of cours spm is over finally..On the 2nd dec which was my last day of exam went out with bryan to watch twilight.It was an awesome movie.Im so into that movie.Anyway back to my exam story,well how are my exam but i tried my best and there is no turning back time so i just lift up my spm unto God and let Him do the rest for me.Hopefully i pass all my subject especially my bm paper.What is my nx plan after takin my result??..Well i've been thinking alot of time whether wat course shud i take.Im planning to take up mass comm or fashion design..Well still thinking cant make any decision as i have to wait for my result.I might be going to form 6th in smi nx year.

Next up i want to talk abt my favourite movie TWILIGHT!!!It IS an awesome movie.I've watched 3 times online,cinema and dvd.It is a very romantic movie.This movie is based on the novel of twilight by the author Stephanie Meyer.Heres some pictures!

Twilight saga

Twilight Movie

The casts

And lastly today is michelle's 15th birthday..i just wanna wish her a
HAPPY BIrTHDAY!!!!

2008-10-14T22:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARREL, MY CLASS REP VIVIENE,AND PUI YAN
~15 OCT 2008~

Graduation (Friends Forever)-Vitamin C

2008-10-11T23:17:00.000-07:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

form 5 graduation

2008-10-11T23:10:00.000-07:00

It has been quite some time since the last time i blogged..as u can read the title of this post that im going to write about my form 5 graduation in smc.

On wed (08/10/08) my school had a graduation day for all the form 5s held in Excelsior Hotel.Nothing much to say about the event.As usual the celebration started out with speeches then prize giving then
performance etc...
Cant believe that time passes so quickly its like as fast as lightning.This year is
my last year in secondary school.n seriously im still havent plan for wat im going to do after form 5..n i oni left 3 months to plan...

Another sad thing is im so gonna miss the times that i spent with my friends during my secondary school life..When i was form 1 i feel so timid when i face all the new faces.And slowly i got use to it and become very hyper when i spent time together with my friends.As in these 5 years.many conflict had occurred between me n my friends.But as we grew older we managed to maintain the friendship although we've gone through many tough times,sad,misunderstanding etc..N the best thing is i really did enjoyed all the laughters,joy,craziness,and fun that my schoolmates had given me..
This graduation day really bring me alot of memories when i first stepped in to this school.I really do apologise of what i have done or said to my friends that is hurtful.
Really thank all my friends that had lighten up my life in this school n also teachers who also guide us in our studies and teach us how to be a good n well disciplined student.
Thank you all of u!
And when i get to know new peoples out there,i'll nvr forget my friends that had impacted my life.
As i pray to God that He will guide me in the future and as i come across new peoples,i pray that God will use me to impact their lives.

This song is a very meaningful song.Its about our life when we were in schooling life.

Graduation - Vitiman C

The war has just begun

2008-09-17T13:19:00.000-07:00

its been a very long time i did not update this blog since the last time i updated it..well this is due to my exams.Trials has started a week ago and 2 more weeks to go.phew..first week was the toughest week because all the tough subject that needs alot of memorisation falls on the first week.Honestly i felt i did not do well for trials because i did alot of mistakes for almost every papers.sigh..Tomorrow will be my ekonomi asas paper 2.hope that i'lll pass ths paper because i've nvr been passing for ea paper..after trials really got to work very to fight till the end in spm..Well hope after trials i'll stay focus on my studies instead of wasting my time sleeping,onlining,msging and etc..the war has just begun.i must fight til the very end without giving up .with God nothing is impossible.if i win i'll praise God and if i lose i'll praise God too.

latest news

2008-08-16T22:55:00.000-07:00

Its has been quite a long time since i updated this blog.First of all im going to talk about exams.Pmr trials had just ended and spm trials is just a few weeks to come.NERVOUS is always in my mind.till now i still not cover all my form 4 and form5 syllabus*sigh*..well holidays had started and i must put up more gear to speed up my studies as time is limited.
Next is about 'Music of the Night' concert organized by the pspa (Perak Society of Performing Arts).The concert was awesome.At first i thought it was just as usual concert which makes people fall into dreamland.When the minute they start,it was great.Although this concert contained of 8 musician only but it sounded like a big orchestra.it was really awesome.

And the latest news is the sixth batch of national service is out.And im the lucky one who got chosen.Well,i already predicted that i got chosen but somehow i just don want to go for the camp.A lot of problems that keeps going around in my mind.worried that i'll fall sick in the camp,not use to the place and ppl there,scare of being molest and alot more.I've think of many ways to escape from ns such as asking my mom to ask for a letter from doctor saying that i couldnt go because of my skin allergic(which is true).And one night during my quiet time,God really had spoken to me saying that im selected for ns not because of anyone decisions but God.God decided to choose me for ns because He wants me to let go of something here that i've never been letting although i tried hard to let go.And the best was God told that He had something greater than whar i want will happen in the camp and it will be a surprise for me and it will brings me happiness and joy.Besides that,He also spoke to me that He wants to use me to spread the gospel.And i really being touch of wat god had spoken to me.So now i decided to obey the lord by following his will.Give thanks to the Lord for this wonderful plan that he has for me.But still i'll pray hard for getting first batch.Thats all for now.

2008-08-04T18:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KELVIN LIM
~2nd AUG~

2008-07-29T17:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday to WHYE JUN~28th July~
Happy BIRthday to DANIEL DING ~30th July~

tired but fun

2008-07-21T22:04:00.000-07:00

Finally im back to blogging again.im going to talk about what happened last week.Well on thursday(17/7),went for drama competition for district level at anderson.And my school got 2nd place n best actress.while the winner is acs n the 3rd place is tcs.Quite satisfied with the result although there were some unfairness.While on the following day,i skipped school and followed some of my church youth members to ymca o become a part-timer.there was an event organized by the star which called 'Trailblazer'.We went to ymca to help the Djp for the preparation of the event.We were splited into different team.And i was placed into 'home express' team.Quite scary at first because i was the only girl in my team.But as v got our tasks to do,i began to make friends with my teammates.All of them were friendly and sporting.I really had a great time with my team leader n the asst.leader esp at midnite while v setting up the things.Although we dont have enough time to sleep and cause us extra tired,but we did our best to make this event a success.Its really a good experience for me for the first time of being marshal in this event.Really appreciate all the moments of joy and laughters from my teammates.

2008-07-09T21:41:00.000-07:00

Its been quite a long time i did not update this blog because of no time to update it.Well theres alot of things happened and i'm going to talk abit about it.First is about drama competition tha held on 2nd july.My school won out of 3 school and will be going for district level on 17th july.
Secondly is about spm trials.the examination will falls on 8th September 2008.To those who are still enjoying n relaxing or even bluring n not sure with the date of the trials,this is the date(08/09/08).1 month left for trials and time really flies.I'm still thinking that spm is still far away but yet its less than 2 months away..Just a blink of eyes n there goes spm.sigh.Gotta start revising now as its running out of time.

Thirdly i want to share is about things happening now in our world.Nowadays disasters are increasing and global warming has started.And the most people complaining is the increase of price.Besides that robbery cases hsa increases Well i can that the world is changing and this shows that Jesus is coming back very soon.Well to all Christian,please stay alert of this.

2008-06-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my 2nd sis SHEREEN
~29th June~

2008-06-21T21:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BIG SIS (MICHELLE)
~22nd June~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOHN LEE
~20TH June~

Band comp '08

2008-06-21T21:00:00.001-07:00

Yesterday went to stadium to watch band competition with the youth.That was my second time going for a band competition.its quite interesting watching the band from other school performing at the field.i can see that all the band members put alot of effort in this competition..best thing is they had a good teamwork.all school did their very best in this competition but too bad there just have 3 winners..for me i think all of them are winners..whether its 1st ,2nd or 3rd place..it means nth to me..most important is they did it with their band spirit..i would like to congratulates to nan hwa in becoming the champion,and amc for the 1st runner up and last but not least pgs fro the 2nd runner up..congrats to these 3 school..

everything is over!

2008-06-08T21:30:00.000-07:00

Well its been quite a long time i did not update this bloggie.Its because i have no time to update it.quite busy on the 2nd week of holiday.well..i shall elaborate more what i was busying about.Firstly was my undang test,many ppl said undang is very easy ni if got study.but when i went for trial i failed 2 times.that time i was like 'huh??y i failed wan??' but after studying another 2 days,went to trial again n finally i passed for 3 times.then the nx day went for the real undang test n finally i passed.right after i finished my undang test went home to packed my stuffs for school camp*phew*.

Reached school at about 5 in the evening on thursday.had fun under the rain with the f5s leaders of youth 1.when all the leaders had gathered in school we had our own barbeque at night.first time in my life doing barbeque because before this i scare of fire but for the sake of my friends so i joined them.this camp was my last camp in youth 1.quite sad to leave the society.whenever we saw the juniors not handling the society well,we felt like helping them but we have no right to do so because we are already retired*sob*anyway being in this society for 5 years really had a life changing experience.i still remembered when i was in form 1,i was very blurred.Simply follow my friend join pbsm.At first i thought that pbsm is just the same as the primary school pbsm but after attending various activities lead by the seniors it really prove me wrong of what i've thought at first.When i was form 2,i started to become more active in the society meeting more new friends and end of the year,i was chosen to be in the representative team to go for competition in the future.While form 3 life,was ok larh..many misunderstanding things happened among our seniors and us.but anyhow we still can manage to solve it.and when form 4 life came,all of us were very busied..many things happened at the same time and v were very stressed up and also had some quarreled among the leaders but that doesnt break our friendship..and in the end everything came out successfully with our co-operation.kinda miss those time when all the leaders do things together during the camp.really enjoyed those moments..i really thank god for sending me those friends..once a youth 1 member,always a youth 1 member.the aim of youth 1 is "To Serve The Public".Thats all about youth 1 life.

us after getting prizes for first aid comp

merdeka parade '07

Well after back from camp on friday afternoon,had a short rest then went for band concert.The concert was awesome.Enjoyed listening to those musics played by the michaelian military band and also seri kembangan winds band.Besides that i also enjoyed watching the 2 conductors from the both band.really admire their conducting^^ thats all about the concert.
Next day which was yesterday,went to cameron with my family and just came back today(sunday).nothing much to talk about just one word TIRED!!!Well thats all for today post..Tmr school reopen gotta finish up my works that has not done so wait for my next post=)

God spoke

2008-05-29T15:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a bad day because of my mum but while i was doing my quiet time,god really spoke to me something that related to what had happened yesterday.He spoke to me about patience and self control.I am lacking of these two element.God spoke to me that quarreling and outbursts of anger are part of the sinful nature.God really knows what problems im facing and also god spoke to me to change and become the kind of good fruits.

God's Word
"But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives:love,joy,peace,patience,kindness,goodness,faithfulness and self-control.(Galatians 5:22)

no FrEEDOM!

2008-05-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

Had a quarrel with my mum.Honestly i really feel that my mum is very unfair towards me.Reason why i quarrel with her because she arrange every plans for me without asking me.Next friday i'll be going for the band concert.I already bought the ticket and promised my friend to go with her.And today only i've been told not to have any activity on that day itself because my whole family will be going cameron.I was so damn pissed off of what she said to me.I told her that i bought the ticket and i already planned everything.And yet she scolded me.WHy cant she just listen what i said.I really feel that i have no freedom.Everything also she arranged for me.sigh.In her mind im still a 3 years old kid.Y cant she understand my feeling??i really don know how to survive like this..i wanted to blast it out in front of her but somehow i just cant do it.

holidays planning

2008-05-28T20:25:00.000-07:00

holidays 2 weeks had started and im busy with my project and tuitions.Well as trial s is just around the corner so i have to take this holidays to revise my 2years syllabus*phew* really tough le..and this coming saturday will be attending the undang course for driving and next tuesday will be sitting for the undang exam if i can finish studying the undang within 3 days.Hopefully i can manage to finish up le because i really don want to wait anymore.I have no more patience to wait for my turn to take my undang exam.Really hope that i could able to pass la or else mum gonna nag me again..thats all la for todays post=)

A visit to an old folks home

2008-05-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

Today had a visit to my school's orphanage with a few of my friends for my moral project.Altough its just a short visit but then i enjoyed visiting them.When i saw them,i feel sympathy for them because they were left by their parents when they were a baby.They feel happy whenever theres a visitor come but for my surprise some of them like to curse each other and argue with each other.Had a short but good conversation with one of them.Although their lives not as good as us but they feel happy too.Really had a great time with them.Hope i can visit them again.And other than visiting the old folks,i also had a good conversation with two talking parrots.haha.

Outing with youth

2008-05-19T21:13:00.000-07:00

Today is one of my happiest day.Hang out with the youth at jusco and we went to watch narnia.It is a great show very 'kan cheong' also.Then after the movie we went to have lunch at food court.And whye jun bought 18 donuts from big apple.Then we shared together each person one bite on the donuts.And there were alot of disgusting thing happen which made me laugh non stop.Im proud of being one of this family member.REally enjoyed hanging out with them..
Thank God for giving us so much of fun during this outing..

before

after

MMB concert

2008-05-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

To all the readers please take note..There will a band concert on 6th June 2008 organized by the Michaelian Military Band.The concert will held in Yuk Choy primary school hall.Tickets are rm10 for students and rm20 for adults.hope all of u out there will buy the tickets.It it not a normal concert but i can guarantee that this concert would be a very enjoyment concert.Below are the details.For ticket booking kindly pls contact the peoples who are incharge.Thanks alot..

Exams over

2008-05-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

Mid term exams are finally over guess im gonna fail every of my subject.Today did not go to school because of my laziness.Slept at 2 something in the morning then woke up at 2pm 12 hours+.hehe..I just saw the video of the earthquake in China.I felt so sad for the peoples in China.I wonder y this disaster happened to this earth..well guess thats no answer for it.i feel so sad for those innocent peoples that involve in the disaster.Their lives were just ended like that.Well we cant predict the future n we wouldnt know what will happen tomorrow.I understand that god send all this to the earth because many people had done evil things n this is our punishment.So i cant blame god by sending this disaster to kill many of the innocent lives.n this is the sign of our world is ending.n He is coming.Well for all reader,hope u all can spend sometime to pray for those in China who is suffering.And this is one of the video of the disaster.

Exam fever..

2008-05-09T04:42:00.000-07:00

Its has been quite a long time i did not update this blog due to my examination.Well,first week of exam is over.*phew*Waiting for the 2nd week of exam to come.Honestly i did not do my best in this mid term.As usual i dont have the mood to sit for exam.Every paper that i sat,i found it quite difficult.It is my fault though because i did not study for this mid term exam.sigh.2nd week of exam is coming which is a bad week for me because all the subject that needs to memorize will be tested.Gosh!!!!That lady LWS is so insane!!!y must she arrange the schedule like this???ARGHHH!!

these are the papers that im going to sit for next week.

12/5/2008
Monday- Science
Tuesday- History
Wednesday- Ekonomi Asas
Thursday- English Literature
Firday- Merdeka!!!!!

God spoke...

2008-04-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a really bad day for me.Theres something happened to me and its makes me cried non-stop.I will only mention abit of the problem that i faced last nite.Well,i've been treating this person as my friend and also like a sister.But theres something happened to me that makes me hate her.Shes been hiding alot of things against me with another person who used to close with me.I felt very hurt and did nothing but just cried out to God.But i feel thankful because God had spoken to me through the bible and also through my friends that i have to rely every burden that has in me to Him.Throughout the problem that i faced it really strengthen my faith in God.He even spoke to me that no matter what i still have to love a person although he/she hurts my feeling.Well i know that God is preparing something best for me in the future.All i need to do is to stay strong and trust more in Him.And now im learning to forgive and forget of what the person did to me.Thanks God for being there for me whenever im sad.

God's Word
The Lord is my shepherd;I have all that I need.He lets me rest in green meadows;he leads me beside peaceful streams.He renews my strength.He guides me along right paths,bringing honor to his name.Even when I walk through the darkest valley,I will not be afraid,for You are close beside me.Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.(Psalm 23:1-4)

Exam season...

2008-04-15T05:50:00.002-07:00

Back to blogging.Well,mid year examination is just around the corner n yet i havent even start any of my revision.sigh.Honestly i've wasted alot of time in sleeping.All i need to do is pray n ask god for strength to study.I cant just continue this laziness,have to do something so i can focus more on my study.
Recently feel quite unhappy because of a person.Well im not gonna mention who is that.I think i have to put this problem aside and focus more on my study.Trying very hard to forget this person.

God's Word
Then Jesus said,"Come to me,all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens,and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you.Let me teach you,because I am humble and gentle at heart,and you will find rest for your souls.(Matthew 11:28)

First blog...

2008-04-12T00:27:00.000-07:00

well first of all thanks for viewing my blog..as the title already stated that this is my first blog.Today met up with some of my friends n my ex senior in parade.We went to kenny rogers to have lunch.Its been quite some times did not see yuen fhei.she really did changed alot.Getting prettier of course.well v really had a great chit chat.had alot of fun listening to poh choo's craps..haha..well hope to c her again le..really miss her alots..our one n only Sergeant Major Cheong Yuen Fhei..She is forever our great president although shes retired.not forgetting the others ex leader who is wei-yi,ui li,and shu xin..miss u all very much...thats all for today's update.